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duckattack
The Duck of Death.
I didn't know profanity at all until he started up posting this last spring... So I didn't really know how serious he was being, and with everything that's been going on in my life I was pretty cranky and probably looking for a confrontation to begin with. That's why I posted in his 'gay men can't listen to metal' thread, even though I didn't really pursue it - you and Frodo had it pretty well covered. I also didn't want to jump on the bandwagon of people bashing him, I actually got a kick out of the fact that he was pissing off a lot of people that needed to be pissed off. I think he'll be ok, from what you describe he kinda sounds like my ex... too scared to go after what they want, so they go around bringing people into their lives and then hurting them when it gets too intense. So yeah, I attract some unstable people myself, but I'm not too sure about my own sanity anymore... I know that right now I'm still depressed as hell, and it's not just over her... Going and living in Finland for three months and then coming back here and going back to the same shit job and same shit life... Well, I guess I didn't realize how boring my life had become, and now I don't have someone to go home and complain to about it anymore - I even sent my cats off to live with my previous ex when I moved! I'm not playing music now either, which is fucking weird. But I've decided that I need to be alone for a while, not even casual sex, which never works out for me anyway - 9 times out of 10, I end up in relationships with people who were supposed to be 'casual' partners. So feel free to stalk and flirt, since you know I'm a moody Cancer and I'll just ignore you if I get tired of it! Oh, and you've probably seen these pics, but they're the only ones I can link to and I don't have a scanner:MRBEAST said:okay, then how bout pics with yer clothes on?
nothing sexy about boxers-baggy shorts arent sexy. tighty whiteys are sexy-long as theyre white and not gray or pink or whatever color they picked up in the laundry.
profanity, it isnt like we all didnt know he was a mental case and rui helped me bury the thread when he wigged on the maiden board and started talking about how all his doctors and psychiatrists decided he isnt gay and people just called him that cuz he's weird. i guess it shouldnt be any surprise to me but the only time people have been interested in me is for sex and it's all my crappy relationships have been based on... i knew he was a nutzo, but it was nice to hear somebody had feelings for me besides just getting naked for once...
you... mr skullhead was cool enough to begin with, then one day i saw a post-i think it was to profanity even
it made my perv mind start working over time
when ya started talkin about yer gf though i had to stop, i dont think anybody who cant be with the person they love wants to hear somebody else flirtin with um.
http://www.geocities.com/skullguy23/chris97.jpg
http://www.geocities.com/skullguy23/chris98.jpg
And there's another one in the pics thread in this forum, but I can't remember the URL.
duckattack said:
profanitys been around about 4 years now even though he says he started on the chat boards 2 years ago. to scared to go after what he wants yes, but he's allways been the outcast type and there wasnt anyone to hurt til i came around and im sure he hasnt realised that he really has hurt me...
you wouldnt believe how similar your story is to mine except mine was alot more extreme and would sound like a bad soap opera i made up. i didnt doubt my sanity, cuz of what was going on in 1998 i lost it and the shit happening to me and around me... unless you lived in a warzone or ethiopia you probably havent ever had to deal with what i have... and every day it got worse. 2001 my friend speedfreak talked me out of shooting myself and had me move in with his family. blablabla, i dont want to get into it and you wouldnt want to hear it. talking about fucked up similaritys isnt gonna make either of us feel any better, so i just deleted the million words i typed...
i didnt think i had ever seen any pictures of you, but after seeing the 2nd one, you had a couple from the same time as the 2nd one with you and the bicycle. my drugged out brain doesnt work right but after seeing that 2nd pic now i remember you saying you were bi before and i said you were cute and you got pissed and told me "i said i have a girlfriend now could you just fucking drop it" at the time i was majorly offended
those pics of you are good looking, but the pic where yer playing and yer hair is longer and yer dressed cool instead of like a kid with a backpack-you shouldnt have showed me that, it works way to well for me
cancers are moody and get quiet when things get buggin and geminis the more things get buggin the louder we get...
even if ya didnt say ya wanted to be alone, like i said i know it would never happen cuz yer far to normal to ever be involved with me, but it wont stop me from trying.
i really apprecriate you takeing the time to talk like this the last few days. whatever it is about you but you talking gives me a very uncharecteristic calming and it has helped alot.
wish i knew what to say that would do the same for you, but i dont. about all i can tell you is being alone and depressed isnt going to make yer life any better. you are 100% sane, guys that get it never recognise it when it happens, but even though you arent that old it's still midlife crisis and even though everything seems boreing if you are alone and not doing shit it is only going to get worse. i dont mean alone sex or partnerwise i mean alone by yourself. get out and be around people and even if you dont at all feel like it start playing again. in itself it might not give you the satisfaction it used to, but it will make you feel better about other things.
one day we will both meet the right people, and if we're real lucky we wont do what we said we wont do and hook up with more fuck ups before we meet the right one...
duckattack
The Duck of Death.
Maybe I'm having memory lapses, but I don't remember saying anything like "I've got a gf so drop it"... That's just not my style, and even if I had a gf it wouldn't piss me off to get hit on!MRBEAST said:profanitys been around about 4 years now even though he says he started on the chat boards 2 years ago. to scared to go after what he wants yes, but he's allways been the outcast type and there wasnt anyone to hurt til i came around and im sure he hasnt realised that he really has hurt me...
you wouldnt believe how similar your story is to mine except mine was alot more extreme and would sound like a bad soap opera i made up. i didnt doubt my sanity, cuz of what was going on in 1998 i lost it and the shit happening to me and around me... unless you lived in a warzone or ethiopia you probably havent ever had to deal with what i have... and every day it got worse. 2001 my friend speedfreak talked me out of shooting myself and had me move in with his family. blablabla, i dont want to get into it and you wouldnt want to hear it. talking about fucked up similaritys isnt gonna make either of us feel any better, so i just deleted the million words i typed...
i didnt think i had ever seen any pictures of you, but after seeing the 2nd one, you had a couple from the same time as the 2nd one with you and the bicycle. my drugged out brain doesnt work right but after seeing that 2nd pic now i remember you saying you were bi before and i said you were cute and you got pissed and told me "i said i have a girlfriend now could you just fucking drop it" at the time i was majorly offended
those pics of you are good looking, but the pic where yer playing and yer hair is longer and yer dressed cool instead of like a kid with a backpack-you shouldnt have showed me that, it works way to well for me
cancers are moody and get quiet when things get buggin and geminis the more things get buggin the louder we get...
even if ya didnt say ya wanted to be alone, like i said i know it would never happen cuz yer far to normal to ever be involved with me, but it wont stop me from trying.
i really apprecriate you takeing the time to talk like this the last few days. whatever it is about you but you talking gives me a very uncharecteristic calming and it has helped alot.
wish i knew what to say that would do the same for you, but i dont. about all i can tell you is being alone and depressed isnt going to make yer life any better. you are 100% sane, guys that get it never recognise it when it happens, but even though you arent that old it's still midlife crisis and even though everything seems boreing if you are alone and not doing shit it is only going to get worse. i dont mean alone sex or partnerwise i mean alone by yourself. get out and be around people and even if you dont at all feel like it start playing again. in itself it might not give you the satisfaction it used to, but it will make you feel better about other things.
one day we will both meet the right people, and if we're real lucky we wont do what we said we wont do and hook up with more fuck ups before we meet the right one...
Oh well, if I got shitty than I apologize, it doesn't seem like you've held a grudge though. It's just been the past few days where I started feeling really mental again. I think it may have something to do with being on vicodin - aside from very rarely smoking weed & hash, I've been totally clean for a really long time, and I think reintroducing opiates into my system has thrown things off balance, even if they're wussy opiates. I'm kinda glad I'm out of 'em now, I must be getting fucking old!
Actually, since I've been back in Portland I've gotten out and socialized more than I have in years (not saying much there), because a lot of the time it's just too fucking much to be by myself. When I said 'alone', I meant not in a relationship. I've got some awesome friends, but I've always been kind of an 'emotional martyr' - I'd suffer in silence rather than be a 'burden' on my friends, even though I'm always playing therapist myself. With the recent situation I haven't really had that luxury, though, so there's a few who have had to put up with some pretty choice whining from me.
And yeah, I need to start playing again. There's a band advertising for a bass player in the 'Geezer/Steve Harris' vein, sounds perfect. I'm gonna call 'em, hopefully they don't suck! And I've got another friend who wants me to play with him, so I'll probably do that as well, even if the other thing works out.
Anyway, now that half the umbb members know my life story, I'll just shut the hell up! See ya around!
duckattack said:
hope that doesnt mean that i started buggin or that i said to much of yer business in public or ya think i erased the shit cuz ya thought it was getting to personal for me-there isnt any to personal for me, i just figured you didnt want to hear all my bullshit.
duckattack
The Duck of Death.
No, nothing like that at all. I'm just a pretty self-conscious person is all, believe it or not, and sometimes I feel weird if I think I'm drawing attention to myself. You haven't brought up anything about me that I haven't brought up myself, so don't sweat it!MRBEAST said:
duckattack said:No, nothing like that at all. I'm just a pretty self-conscious person is all, believe it or not, and sometimes I feel weird if I think I'm drawing attention to myself. You haven't brought up anything about me that I haven't brought up myself, so don't sweat it!
you never brought up the subject of pictures of you naked, but since ya wont let me see um i guess it works out the same
duckattack
The Duck of Death.
You know I wouldn't get pissy about naked pix, though!MRBEAST said:you never brought up the subject of pictures of you naked, but since ya wont let me see um i guess it works out the same
But I really don't have 'em - My ex is sending me the rest of my stuff back from Helsinki soon, so we'll see if she puts that one in there, or if she keeps it for herself!
duckattack said:You know I wouldn't get pissy about naked pix, though!
if it was me id keep it-but ya knew that
