Crazy shit!!

ALL THE TIME

I also feel the need to say stuff that would make people disown or kill me, I don't actually want to say it, but I think of what would happen if I did.

Also if something is valuable I feel like I'd like to destroy it. I never act on any of this, it's just this thought of doing it is always there

It's not like I am actually considering it, I just think it.
 
Actually, come to think of it, moreso than jumping off of buildings, I've stood in the kitchen late at night slicing an apple or something and then wondered what it would feel like if I stabbed myself right through the chest. I would never do it, of course. I have no suicidal tendencies. Just wonder.
 
I always wonder what it would be like to lay at the bottom of a lake, peaceful and serene until death comes. Looking up at the pail moon in the cloudy, starlit sky.

...I smell an Opethian song in the making.
 
yea i often wonder that. but its just wondering. Ill be like "gee i can kill myself if i wanted right now by running right in front of this oncoming truck, thats something to think about". its weird.