One Year Ago Today
One year ago today,
I got up early to feed you breakfast.
You werent hungry, so I mixed some boiled liver in with your food and fed you by hand.
You smiled.
I like to think that you felt special.
One year ago today,
I went to work and mentally checked out.
It was a hectic day with lots to do and I was useless and dont remember most of it.
People understood.
They knew it was a very sad day.
One year ago today,
I left work early and drove home to get you.
I put your leash on you and helped you up so your Daddy could walk you up the stairs.
Again you smiled.
It pleases me to think you felt proud.
One year ago today,
You took your last ride in the car.
You sat up so tall, but the look on your face showed how much pain you were in.
Im sorry.
I know I put it off too long.
One year ago today,
You went to the vets for the last time.
You lay quietly on the floor between your Daddy and as we cried and said goodbye.
You sighed.
Sometimes I think you knew why you were there.
Today,
I got up early to feed Tink & Star breakfast.
They werent hungry, so I patted their heads and picked up the bowls and let them be.
They smiled.
I think they sensed my mood.
Today,
I went to work and ran on autopilot.
It was a typically crazy day with lots to do and I did all of it in a surreal fog.
Nobody noticed.
Todays significance was between you and me.
Today,
I left work on time and drove home to see my babies.
I put on their leashes and let them celebrate all the way out to the car for our ride.
They smiled.
They love walks as much as you.
Today,
I took Tink and Star to your favorite park.
We walked beneath the trees on the same paths you took the last time you were ever there.
I cried.
I could still see your happy face.
Today,
I stopped at your tree.
I placed a white rose from my yard over the spot where we buried your lock of fur.
I cried some more.
I miss my boy so much.
Today,
I look back on everything that happened.
Mommys boy, if we thought for a minute there were any other way, wed have done it.
Im so sorry, Boo.
I will never forget your last smile,
One year ago today.
One year ago today,
I got up early to feed you breakfast.
You werent hungry, so I mixed some boiled liver in with your food and fed you by hand.
You smiled.
I like to think that you felt special.
One year ago today,
I went to work and mentally checked out.
It was a hectic day with lots to do and I was useless and dont remember most of it.
People understood.
They knew it was a very sad day.
One year ago today,
I left work early and drove home to get you.
I put your leash on you and helped you up so your Daddy could walk you up the stairs.
Again you smiled.
It pleases me to think you felt proud.
One year ago today,
You took your last ride in the car.
You sat up so tall, but the look on your face showed how much pain you were in.
Im sorry.
I know I put it off too long.
One year ago today,
You went to the vets for the last time.
You lay quietly on the floor between your Daddy and as we cried and said goodbye.
You sighed.
Sometimes I think you knew why you were there.
Today,
I got up early to feed Tink & Star breakfast.
They werent hungry, so I patted their heads and picked up the bowls and let them be.
They smiled.
I think they sensed my mood.
Today,
I went to work and ran on autopilot.
It was a typically crazy day with lots to do and I did all of it in a surreal fog.
Nobody noticed.
Todays significance was between you and me.
Today,
I left work on time and drove home to see my babies.
I put on their leashes and let them celebrate all the way out to the car for our ride.
They smiled.
They love walks as much as you.
Today,
I took Tink and Star to your favorite park.
We walked beneath the trees on the same paths you took the last time you were ever there.
I cried.
I could still see your happy face.
Today,
I stopped at your tree.
I placed a white rose from my yard over the spot where we buried your lock of fur.
I cried some more.
I miss my boy so much.
Today,
I look back on everything that happened.
Mommys boy, if we thought for a minute there were any other way, wed have done it.
Im so sorry, Boo.
I will never forget your last smile,
One year ago today.
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