- Aug 30, 2001
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you should re-read it.
A lot of what I said about Laura applies to you as well, at least as far the insecurity stuff goes. You're another one that I think has amazing potential but is blowing it with a "not giving a shit" attitude. I also think you sometimes try to come off harder and more badass than everyone else, but it fails because you are also so open about your insecurities. It just doesn't make sense that someone who apparently thinks so little of himself can actually try to act like he's more well rounded and streetwise than everyone else, especially people he's never met in person.
Sometimes I think your determination to prove you like rap and hip-hop and get along so well with other races gets excessively annoying. In this day and age it's not really that weird for white people to have black friends so you always pointing it out makes it seems like you're trying to prove something that no one really cares about. Cool. You get on well with black people. You understand them. Right on. So do I. Who cares?
That said, I think you're fucking awesome John. You're also young and have a lot of growing up to do. I think you have a good head on your shoulders and I'm confident that when it comes down to it, you know how to use it when it counts. I love that you're always so active in trying to make yourself better and conquer your demons. You're willing to lay it all out there and listen to what everyone thinks with an open mind. Just keep that shit up man, it's hard work but if you want it bad enough, you'll persevere. Fuck, I can see you doing it already.
Dunno about everyone else, but I'd miss you.