so i just got my yearly review from my boss

[minxnim]

two months late but still. she is so nice!
it is supposed to be like this epic delve into a person's pros and cons, and sometimes it gets brutal, like i remember this one girls' said that she was too slow and the client's complained that her work was sloppy. i told my boss to be honest and i didnt care because i do alright here and i know it, but DAMN. she was so nice i almost feel like i fleeced her or something?
under the section: "how can this employee better their work?'
she wrote:
"if it were possible to clone her, that would be my suggestion."


SAYIN!!!!!

 

[avi]

someday I hope that I might actually get a review and maybe even raise. someday...

but I sure ain't holding my breath

 

[minxnim]

they dont have a policy at your job to do yearly reviews?
i may say that i dont want my raise if they end up laying people off. maybe they'll keep someone around if i dont take it.

 

[xfer]

i think i accidentally got a double raise this year?

 

[minxnim]

don't fight it. just go with it dude.

 

[xfer]

i think it will just encourage the phantasy that i've had for many years now...that anything good i have must be a mistake, and one day someone's going to arrive, look at a clipboard, and say "sorry, we've got to take that back". be it friends or a job or love or anything.

 

[minxnim]

i have that vague feeling too most of the time. which is why i said i feel like i am fleecing my boss. i always feeling like i'm pulling a fast one on people. but then when i really think about it, i'm just being myself. ?

 

[xfer]

i dunno, i just feel like a fraud on the verge of discovery at all times, even though yes, i am just being myself too. is this a uniquely american attitude?

 

[minxnim]

actually, i've noticed that it's pretty inherent to people who are generally finding themselves doing things they are good at, but don't necessarily always feel like that's what really matters to them.
that, and i think it has to do with actually THINKING and being self aware and introspective. so no, not very american.

 

[xfer]

ok. ok. good.

 

[minxnim]

it's kind of a curse though. i mean, from what i can tell... it never stops. my grandfather still does it... my dad still does it....

 

[xfer]

argh. well, i guess this sort of stuff is what socrates meant when he said that the wisest man is the one who knows he knows nothing, and all that.

 

[minxnim]

yea. i mean, people who feel they know a lot tend to not want to learn a not. it's a slippery slope.