i don't usually bring my personal life to this board, however, something i've been thinking about, i'm not really looking for a response or agreement, just getting it out
i'm not usually the depressed type, often enough, i actually dislike those 'oh poor twisted me' kind of people, but things have been going kinda shitty lately, nothing TOO bad, just a bit stressed out, just got out of a 1 year relationship, didn't end well, alot of my friends are being pricks at the moment, and i just feel stuck in a shit sandwhich latley,
in a time when i don't feel like doing anything (going to work, hanging out with any friends, or even going outside my house) i feel a need for escape, and it hit me yesterday, it happened to me, i was taken away from my shit world, and into another, did i get high? did i get hammered? no, although i don't mind either, this was different, what happened? i was listening to The Great Southern Trendkill, the track '10's'
Dimebag's solo completley took me away from everything going on in my world, and made me forget about everything, i can't really describe the feeling, but it truly was an escape, and i don't think i have to give details about the song Floods.
the point of this thread? well, some people have told me that i shouldn't have been so upset over Dime's death, 'you didn't know him' 'he didn't know you' blah blah blah, true, i didn't know him, but i can honestly say that he (and other musicians) do a hell of alot more for me than alot of people i'm close with, Dime had/has the power to make me feel alot better when i'm feeling like a bag of shit, i don't think i know anyone who can do that the way he (and other musicians) does. you know people say to me 'would you take a family member's death that hard'?
to tell you the truth...no i wouldn't, i don't speak to my family hardly, and they really do shit all for me, of course i would be sad, but should i go out of my way to be 'extra' sad simply because i am releated to them? i think it's retarded.
i don't want to beat the dead horse either, but since people always bring it up with me, you know, i tell 'em about how great of a player Dime is, and his personality too, i mean watching the vulgar vids and getting hammered, it feels like drinking with the band, so at times i do feel close to those people. so i don't think people understand why Dime was important to me, and although it's really hard to explain, i hope some of it is cleared up, the dude meant alot, thankfully i got to tell him to his face just how i felt about what he's done for me, maybe he heard it a million times, but i know i felt better being able to actually reach out and say 'hey man, thank you!'
i dunno, i'm not very good at explaining things, i just have alot of thoughts, and i'm tryin' to get some of them out, point is, even if i have said it a million times...
Riff In Peace Dime.