Dwelling on the past

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i dwell on the past a lot. when i do stupid things like really stupid they stay in my memory and sometimes i will just randomly remember them like sitting in bed when my mind drifts and i feel embarassed and like an idiot even though i'm just sitting in my bed trying to sleep. i hate it.
 
I never forget, I don't forgive, and I don't tend to. ppl are supposed to be (and are, right?) intelligent beings that in every moment have to be aware of what they are saying/doing, of the consequences of their acts.

(oh, I don't forgive myself either. :) )

lately it seems I let go but I don't. I don't even forgive stupidity and superficiality. I'm prone to overanalyzing, criticism, self-criticism....

and yes, all of that doesn't get me anywhere, except that it stretches my nerves. LOL I should (only) babble a lot in order to be accepted?

am I a difficult/complicated person? :hypno:

:tickled:

(oh, yes, and everything from the past is always there)
 
Sometimes in my life I've felt the past is all I have. The past has happened, is concrete in nature and linear. You can think about it and know what you've done and seen. The future? Sure, you can predict to within a few days of what will be, but sometimes shit comes from left field, and you're not always sure what you'll do, what will happen to you, and what will come of your standard of living. So, yeah, I prefer to dwell on the past, it keeps the anxiety away. (Not an emo post, just stating an observation.)