Yes... that is kind of a major paradox, Fjell... how to view it? U already
know what I think of it in the end, but yes it sucks bigtime and is
perhaps one of the hardest issues ever to deal with. I told you
earlier that my brother did it and it really had devastating
consequences for the family... it almost made my youngest
brother do the same. earlier a friend of mine did the same,
which almost made his best friend join in as well.
Totally fucked up.
So I fucking hate the suicide shit, because it's so damn
meaningless and still like the only way for some in the end. I know
it was a total waste for my brother as his life was good, but being
really drunk and arguing with friends led to this step. I dunno all
the details but it was just that some ppl laughed at him, and he
was kinda sensitive... and certainly there must have been other
reasons. I hate to know that a great person with a bright future
does this, and I still hate him for that as much as I love him, and
I don't know if that will ever change.
I think almost everybody's thought of it at some time or another
when life is meaningless and all hope seems lost. I've accepted
death a long time ago, but damn if anything in this world is gonna
make me stop of my own will. Never.
In the end I am really confused by it all, and I'm kinda depressed
today for some reason so I needed to let some feelings out
(please don't reply to the stuff about my brother, don't want
to lead the discussion there. thank you)
know what I think of it in the end, but yes it sucks bigtime and is
perhaps one of the hardest issues ever to deal with. I told you
earlier that my brother did it and it really had devastating
consequences for the family... it almost made my youngest
brother do the same. earlier a friend of mine did the same,
which almost made his best friend join in as well.
Totally fucked up.
So I fucking hate the suicide shit, because it's so damn
meaningless and still like the only way for some in the end. I know
it was a total waste for my brother as his life was good, but being
really drunk and arguing with friends led to this step. I dunno all
the details but it was just that some ppl laughed at him, and he
was kinda sensitive... and certainly there must have been other
reasons. I hate to know that a great person with a bright future
does this, and I still hate him for that as much as I love him, and
I don't know if that will ever change.
I think almost everybody's thought of it at some time or another
when life is meaningless and all hope seems lost. I've accepted
death a long time ago, but damn if anything in this world is gonna
make me stop of my own will. Never.
In the end I am really confused by it all, and I'm kinda depressed
today for some reason so I needed to let some feelings out
(please don't reply to the stuff about my brother, don't want
to lead the discussion there. thank you)
