I believe that life is a pointless existence and it's completely batshit how were even alive. Yet one thing I do know, it's better than existing in a third world country scraping along to survive having no time to sit around and think about woe is me but how you're gonna afford the next meal, too busy surviving.
Just my thoughts on nihilism and how I overcame the depression that it sort of brought on.
I used to be super into nihilism but then realised like, all I was doing was sitting around being depressed about it the further I dug into it, never did anything and stayed indoors all the time because my life sucked devoid of any meaning or anything positive to DO because I chose to give myself no meaning. I mainly was just negative all the time which fucks with your mental health too which doesn't help at all.
I think the most logical course of action to do in life is enjoy yourself but be responsible about it, not like some weak person that can't go without some kind of crutch: alcohol/drugs/whatevs cause that just brings more problems than it's worth later on.
There are SO many positive and awesome things you can do in this short existence which can help others who don't have existential problems : IE personal favorite of mine is exposing sociopaths/psychopaths and helping people out of their mind games. Defeating one cunt at a time at their own game and make them acknowledge they have a mental disorder that needs sorting out. I do a lot more than that like helping people get mentally better but that was an example.
Helping others to help yourself - in a roundabout way it's kinda selfish cause you're only doing it to help yourself but it helps both parties involved. It helps me because I feel and think like I have purpose, responsibility and most important of all - something to DO that's good and benefits everyone involved. Gotta get those endorphins going in a positive way somehow. You kinda just know it's all pointless and stupid but even so, you can be pointless and stupid with a purpose of your own.
Nihilism is good to realise you're only here for a short time as a wake up call but beyond that it doesn't really do you any favors except let existential crisis thoughts seep in. That all ate away at me then I met a friend and she pretty much taught me to become a sensualist and that pretty much kicked the severe nihilism depression in the dick the more and more I built up doing sensualist stuff and feeling good for it. I know that we are still pointless bio-robots that do things at random but at least I'm a pointless bio-robot with something positive to do at random and feel good about it.
No one knows what death entails, it likely is just nothingness but if you sit around waiting to die all the time you just bring on mental sickness, and you waste your existence on pondering it instead of trying to enjoy it. If you're lucky to get an existence then do something with it imo, rather than just wait for it to end cause when you're at the end it's very common that people regret not doing stuff. I thought about this a while ago and kinda came to the conclusion that if I wasted my life just waiting for the end, I'd just regret it near the end, or years down the line wishing I'd done something with myself, in a way I sorta thought like that's kinda like torturing the older version of myself who will likely be near enough a different person by then.
Also not to be a dick or anything but like, a lot of people who I knew who used to be depressed with this usually ended up being depressed because they had no boyfriend or girlfriend, or their jobs suck etc - it does happen and these are shit situations of course but they're not solved by turning to the universe, they're solved by you learning how to fix the problems.
I know a lot of really deep nihilistic people won't appreciate what I said but I'm literally just explaining how I got myself out of that very strong bout of nihilistic depression so I can have fun again, stop taking everything ridiculously seriously and laugh like I used to, and if my post even slightly helps someone then that's awesome.
I'll always acknowledge it though, it won't ever go away but if you can learn to live with it well, then life is actually okay. Also near death experiences help give you a kick up the arse, but I don't recommend that lol
