Sending good vibes to you.
I know the pain... Conan my beloved Alaskan Malamute passed away on 20:05 March 28 this year and i still sometimes produce few tears when i remember him (right now my eyes are a bit "watery" and i feel that characteristic pressure in my head).
He lived 13 years, 2 months and 5 days and he was definitely a full member of my family, like my younger brother.
I know you know it, but i'll say it anyway: time heals emotional wounds, so stay strong.