this first one here is beginning of a concept album i'm working on.
Along the Tracks
Surrounded by half the world you never knew
I saw their tears
I heard their prayers
Standing next to flowers that needed just a bit more time
I felt the darkness
I longed for nothingness
Satisfied to find the grass growing after all that has died
I never wept
I always cared
Saving my last glance to mean something special
I felt so far away
I longed to separate
This moment that I must learn to relive
Has left me somewhere in the distance
This moment of utter isolation
Has left me to create my own definition of desolation
I cant feel the cross above my head
I cant distinguish her from the past
I only see the cars of her so-called friends
I only know what she said last
Eyes, searching around the bend
Mind, thinking of a happy end
I, I hear her voice again
From above, you can see a parade of black
From one side, you see all those who believed her
From one side, you see all those who deceived her
Its based upon your perception
They went away
She was gone
I stepped through the gateway between the past and the future
Where from here?
What is the way?
These next two are my version of love poems
Only mildly terrified
Ive never seen true light.
Ive never known true beauty
Until
I cant decide, at times, who I really want to be.
I cant describe, in all too many words, who I wish I could be
In life, I am a tentative soul, one who lives for the day and worries by the second.
How can I change? How can let life hit me with the Gibson stride?
I try too hard to understand what Ill already know
I try too little to focus on my conceptions flow
Divided between law and mind
But, still left with a heart
Again, Im caught somewhere in time
Half my life seems full and the other half empty, but which is real?
Ive walked to your room before.
Ive been part of your waking smile
Yet, I just cant speak
For, Im torn between your stricken amazement and my foolish interpretation
Now, if its not clear, I think you are amazing.
But, my stupidity has left me to estranged word
Yes, I would love to worry about you every second (Wonderful worries!)
But, as grand as that might be; I just cant hit the right approach I think
So, Ill leave the true opinions up to you.
As far as my eyes can see, Im just a walk, or a window, away from all thats inspiring
Shoot, make that more than inspiring. Im a minute away from total, complete, and utter
Well, a word would not suffice I think.
I guess it should end here, before I rant on and on .
Maybe this was not Roses are Red and Violets are Blue
But, I think youll get the picture
At least, I hope you will
In the right way of course
So, be my in vision for eternity.
For, then, I can be ok; or, maybe much more that
Deference
Dead to certain definitions of reason
Deemed insane for an extinguishable hope
Daring, yet knowing that nothing may exist
Dying for that chance, that chance
Different images of her fill my mind with dire consistency
Deviating from life for just a second places me in her whim
Destiny has no place, I hope, for it will only take me away from her
Direct intuition is to tell her exactly how I feel, but is that possible?
Dividing is this world
Disillusioned by heart, that seems to be my psychological case
Does it have to rain?
Do I have to stay and wait?
Devoid of all understanding, Ill make the best off all I have: love
Disease took over me today; my addiction to her can describe both extremes
Dates on the calendar cannot be the pain in my side anymore; an even larger wound has developed
Deference is what I have for her; awe is my initial condition; amazement is my lasting impression
Dont let me become a mere passerby
Disinterest is for those without soul
Design the conclusion to my path; she is the one who put me on it
Deciding where to go, only her mandylions truly know
Shawn
