Me too, now... as I'm still growing... life is a constant growth process.
I'm listening to "Believe", by Savatage.
I think I can't express how much I love this song... it usually has the power to help me a lot...
It's got such a strenght, a power, I don't know whether it is for the lyrics or not, maybe it's the music itself, or even the mix of both things...
Love this part of the lyrics:
"I never wanted to know, never wanted to see.
I wasted my time, till time wasted me.
Never wanted to go, always wanted to stay,
'cause the person I am, are the parts that I play.
So I plot and I plan, hope and I scheme,
to the lure of a night filled with unfinished dreams.
And I'm holding on tight to a world gone astray...
as they charge me for years I can't pay."