believe me, i've done a lot of considering...but when it comes down to it, it's something that's always plagued me, even since childhood
i could never get my schoolwork done because i couldn't concentrate on it long enough. i fully well understood the material, and always did well on tests, but i just could never be bothered to sit down and get it done. same thing with chores - i could never focus long enough to get my room cleaned, or any silly shit like that...i'd always start toying around with something else when i was 1/2 way through it.
now the same thing goes with music...i have a bunch of songs here that are probably 90% finished, but unless i'm stoned, my mind wanders around too much to finish them. i really wish i could find another way than smoking weed to channel my motivations, but i'd much rather turn to the green than a pill bottle.