My review of 2005... for me it was a year marked by massive highs and massive lows. I'll try to remember as much as I can and go through the year chronologically....
It started on a very low note, all of January is a blur really. I was having trouble at home, I wasn't speaking to the person who I cared the most about (my best friend) and I had an extremely ill advised fling with a girl in Adelaide. These were all something I learnt from so I don't harbour too much ill feeling towards it.
My year started to turn around froM Febuary, specifically from MFTB onwards. I met Jess and our relationship started to take it's first steps. I saw March as being my month of "renewal".... I was going to forget my problems of the past and only look forward. This led to me eventually cutting off contact with my "best friend" as I had finally realised the adverse effect it was having on my life.
Metalstock was my big event for March/April... infact it was probably my biggest event of the year. I don't think ANYTHING will top sitting around a campfire, telling stories and roasting stolen food (he who has fire, has power haha) while listening to the last few bands of the night. I made many new friends over that weekend, the Transcending Mortality guys in particular.
Unfortunately this was also around the time I felt that something was "wrong" in Celestial. Jess made mention of the fact that me and Tweek both felt more comfortable hanging out with other bands instead of our own. I realised that this was a very true point.
Not long after I had my scariest event of the year.... while playing a show at the Lansdowne Hotel, I tore a hole in the fluid lining of my lungs. This caused my body to not get enough oxygen into my blood, which actually caused me to temporarily lose my sight towards the end of our set. I somehow managed to pack my gear up... walked offstage and then collapsed. My doctor told me that technically I should have died... he doesn't know how I played in considering my lung was on the verge of collapsing. Anyway, he advised a break from drumming. It lasted two weeks because I was feeling pressured into getting back onstage. This fueled my eventual decision to leave Celestial... it was something I never forgave.
Anyway.. my July eventually rolled around and my birthday turned into a total non-event. Jess's birthday in August however was very different. That weekend showed exactly my "highs and lows" point from earlier. We spent an amazing weekend away together, I felt on top of the world... then I came back to Sydney to find my band had been blacklisted from several venues and by pretty much every "name" band. This was due to a drunken fight involving two members (no prizes for guess who). I immediately quit the band... only agreeing to play one last show because it was the following week.
That show was really hard for me to get through... on the one hand, it was probably the best gig I've EVER played. We were tight and heavy as and they crowd went insane. But then I remembered the reasons why I was leaving the band.... it really tore me up. More then most people would realise
A few months have passed since I left the band and while I don't regret leaving, I do regret the fact that I haven't played drums "properly" since then. I am looking to change this very soon
Late in the year one of my best friends Scotty (former bassist for Celestial and a metal legend in Sydney) suffered another collapsed lung (after having it happen late last year as well as having a heart attack). It was hard to see someone who is so full of life (even larger then life) struck down and left powerless. That took a big toll on me, because one of my biggest fears is dieing young. He is hopefully on the road to recovery so we're all keeping our fingers crossed for him.
November saw the birth of my nephew Jayke... he's now 6 weeks old and keeping up the family tradition of being a little shit machine
haha
Christmas this year was very different for me... for the first time I had to divide my time between two families. And boy did I score big in the presents haha (but I've already posted that list). I also got to spend nye "with" someone... even though we didn't actually do anything, it was a much better end to the year then any of my previous ones.
So I guess 2005 will be an odd year to look back on. I've finished the year on a pretty high note... I finally have a fulltime job that I like and am good at, I have an amazing girlfriend and I'm pretty confident for what the future will bring.
Looking back I can't believe I am at this point considering how dark my year was looking when it started!