Well, here I am awake at nearly 5 am over here, can't sleep, technically Monday is my last day here in Finland, cos I gotta leave early on Tuesday. Still plenty of time to have some fun...
I dunno even what to think. I came here on a whim. I had a feeling i'd be happy here. And I am. Totally. From the start it was amazing, sure I had my ups and downs, hell, the second week here I was actually pretty lonely and stuff, got a little homesick. I knew things were starting to change when I got homesick for Helsinki when I was 11 or so days in Kuopio. That was about 3 weeks into my trip. And it was then I realized that I think I wanna stay here. Not about 2 weeks later I realized I DID want to stay here.
Finland is home now for me as far as I am concerned. As I said in the Hellsinki thread, I am just looking at these 2.5 months as a 'US visit.' I got a lot of stuff to square away in a little bit of time but I can do it.
Really, I met some of the best people I ever knew in my life here, and found kindess in people I never knew existed before. I knew my buddies in the US were always here for me, and they helped me out here too, and here, I met strangers that helped me in a huge way. My band friends gave me a ton of help when I needed it, and also just made sure I had fun. My current roomate here in Espoo put me up for a whole month when I was still jumpin around. My bud in Kuopio put me up for about 11 days. One of my Finnish buds whom I only met about five months ago made sure I was picked up and well drunk up. I had a place to keep my stuff from another buddy, who is also helping me out when I move back. I got people keeping ears open for apartments as I look myself, and I had seriously some of the best nights of my life here. Thus, for sure, that is when I decided i couldn't let it go.
From minigolf matches to blackouts to the drunken singing of the Final Countdown on chairs in bars(every time i hear that song now I will think of Helsinki), to my first introduction one drunken night to Nosturi and my subsequent parties there leading to all kinds of retardness like wrestling matches(as you all probably rememeber the pics
), beer basketball and hell, if not for that I'd have never known I needed to go to a doctor, cos no one ever made me go before.
Right now I am feelin all sorts of hurt that I gotta leave, but at the same time I am happy I'll be able to see my US friends again for awhile before I come back home here. I mean I got some fears, like apartment hunting, I have my DJ job now so I'll have some cash coming in tho...I am just praying to the northern gods one family member knows where I am comin from and gets a bank loan for me. Cos i can't stand to be in the states longer than 2.5 months or so, I wanna celebrate xmas here, and my birthday. Of course I got a bit of a debt to wipe out, but hell, we've all been there so i will try not to worry too much.
Corner Bar is my second home now, and i still gotta visit friends in other cities, like Tampere!
So i guess in retrospect, had I not tossed it all aside and done this I don't think I would have been so happy. I just never found a place before where I could just totally be me, and no one cares. I am gonna miss my Finnish buddies a lot while I am gone. I owe so many of them so much, yet they tell me I owe them nothing. I'll be keeping in touch with everyone for sure. And i mean, I will be getting to party with some Finnish buddies again in about 3 weeks in the states for a couple of nights
In the end, I am glad I took this chance. I had a gut feeling that whatever I was looking for in life, I'd find in Finland. And I did. I got whipped back into health, and basically dont have as much as a sucky view on ALL humans anymore. A lot of them? Well yeah, a lot of people still do suck but lets say here I like the general population a lot more.
My Hungarian sister: We shall do some hardcore partying soon, that's for sure!!! And you can always crash with me whenever! Remember the application, and 'Hi, Mom!!!!!!'
My German sisters: You always have a home with me when you come to Finalnd! Partying with you is great!!! Thanks for your help! Rememeber Orkish, the Finland/US wrestling match and try to remember other stuff, thats hard to!!
My Finnish buddies, most of whome don't read the board but I gotta give a shout out too anyway: Thanks for all you done for me, each one of ya whom I thank, you all did something real special for me.
My roomate for hooking me up big time when I was really needing it and helping me while i was here...i'll always find you a place in the states should you go, as I got friends who will help you for helping me...and you got my number, email and addy!
my friend who is helping me big time in my move with buddy support and helpin me keep stuff safe and puttin me up a bit, cookin for me, talkin to me, your helping me cope with a huge decision and i can never thank you enough for it, you always got a best friend in me for!!! I'm always here!
the Nosturi crew for many nights of insanity, beer basketball and wrestling, and for making sure my ass got itself back in health...I might have dropped over if not for that, so when I say I might owe my life to one of ya, yeah, I just might. But you didn't want anything back...
my buddies who paid my cabs home(and you'll be gettin that beer!), who took me out drinking and just wouldnt let me pay, invited me to your houses for more parties, others who put me up when i needed it...
and to the first person who I saw when I arrived in Finland when my plane touched down at 10:30 PM and it was still light out, and introduced me to Corner for a night of massive, massive alcohol overload and you wouldnt let me pay for a goddamned thing, you know I'm always a best friend for life to ya and will always be here. But I don't think I even need to say it, cos ya know already. Jameson next time. Glad you liked dinner.
Any people need anything from me, I always got it, or will get it for yas.
Well shit. I am about typed out with my sappiness, and my 'shout out' list! I guess I just had to post what the hell I am going through right now. Well, you all will be happy cos I'll be able to upload more pictures so I shall then turn this thread into the Complete Helsinki Picture Show. But of course I'll have much more after that...when I move back here, of course!
Thanks for listening to my insessant ramblin. Hope you all know now what a great place this is!
I dunno even what to think. I came here on a whim. I had a feeling i'd be happy here. And I am. Totally. From the start it was amazing, sure I had my ups and downs, hell, the second week here I was actually pretty lonely and stuff, got a little homesick. I knew things were starting to change when I got homesick for Helsinki when I was 11 or so days in Kuopio. That was about 3 weeks into my trip. And it was then I realized that I think I wanna stay here. Not about 2 weeks later I realized I DID want to stay here.
Finland is home now for me as far as I am concerned. As I said in the Hellsinki thread, I am just looking at these 2.5 months as a 'US visit.' I got a lot of stuff to square away in a little bit of time but I can do it.
Really, I met some of the best people I ever knew in my life here, and found kindess in people I never knew existed before. I knew my buddies in the US were always here for me, and they helped me out here too, and here, I met strangers that helped me in a huge way. My band friends gave me a ton of help when I needed it, and also just made sure I had fun. My current roomate here in Espoo put me up for a whole month when I was still jumpin around. My bud in Kuopio put me up for about 11 days. One of my Finnish buds whom I only met about five months ago made sure I was picked up and well drunk up. I had a place to keep my stuff from another buddy, who is also helping me out when I move back. I got people keeping ears open for apartments as I look myself, and I had seriously some of the best nights of my life here. Thus, for sure, that is when I decided i couldn't let it go.
From minigolf matches to blackouts to the drunken singing of the Final Countdown on chairs in bars(every time i hear that song now I will think of Helsinki), to my first introduction one drunken night to Nosturi and my subsequent parties there leading to all kinds of retardness like wrestling matches(as you all probably rememeber the pics
), beer basketball and hell, if not for that I'd have never known I needed to go to a doctor, cos no one ever made me go before.Right now I am feelin all sorts of hurt that I gotta leave, but at the same time I am happy I'll be able to see my US friends again for awhile before I come back home here. I mean I got some fears, like apartment hunting, I have my DJ job now so I'll have some cash coming in tho...I am just praying to the northern gods one family member knows where I am comin from and gets a bank loan for me. Cos i can't stand to be in the states longer than 2.5 months or so, I wanna celebrate xmas here, and my birthday. Of course I got a bit of a debt to wipe out, but hell, we've all been there so i will try not to worry too much.
Corner Bar is my second home now, and i still gotta visit friends in other cities, like Tampere!
So i guess in retrospect, had I not tossed it all aside and done this I don't think I would have been so happy. I just never found a place before where I could just totally be me, and no one cares. I am gonna miss my Finnish buddies a lot while I am gone. I owe so many of them so much, yet they tell me I owe them nothing. I'll be keeping in touch with everyone for sure. And i mean, I will be getting to party with some Finnish buddies again in about 3 weeks in the states for a couple of nights
In the end, I am glad I took this chance. I had a gut feeling that whatever I was looking for in life, I'd find in Finland. And I did. I got whipped back into health, and basically dont have as much as a sucky view on ALL humans anymore. A lot of them? Well yeah, a lot of people still do suck but lets say here I like the general population a lot more.
My Hungarian sister: We shall do some hardcore partying soon, that's for sure!!! And you can always crash with me whenever! Remember the application, and 'Hi, Mom!!!!!!'
My German sisters: You always have a home with me when you come to Finalnd! Partying with you is great!!! Thanks for your help! Rememeber Orkish, the Finland/US wrestling match and try to remember other stuff, thats hard to!!
My Finnish buddies, most of whome don't read the board but I gotta give a shout out too anyway: Thanks for all you done for me, each one of ya whom I thank, you all did something real special for me.
My roomate for hooking me up big time when I was really needing it and helping me while i was here...i'll always find you a place in the states should you go, as I got friends who will help you for helping me...and you got my number, email and addy!
my friend who is helping me big time in my move with buddy support and helpin me keep stuff safe and puttin me up a bit, cookin for me, talkin to me, your helping me cope with a huge decision and i can never thank you enough for it, you always got a best friend in me for!!! I'm always here!
the Nosturi crew for many nights of insanity, beer basketball and wrestling, and for making sure my ass got itself back in health...I might have dropped over if not for that, so when I say I might owe my life to one of ya, yeah, I just might. But you didn't want anything back...
my buddies who paid my cabs home(and you'll be gettin that beer!), who took me out drinking and just wouldnt let me pay, invited me to your houses for more parties, others who put me up when i needed it...
and to the first person who I saw when I arrived in Finland when my plane touched down at 10:30 PM and it was still light out, and introduced me to Corner for a night of massive, massive alcohol overload and you wouldnt let me pay for a goddamned thing, you know I'm always a best friend for life to ya and will always be here. But I don't think I even need to say it, cos ya know already. Jameson next time. Glad you liked dinner.
Any people need anything from me, I always got it, or will get it for yas.
Well shit. I am about typed out with my sappiness, and my 'shout out' list! I guess I just had to post what the hell I am going through right now. Well, you all will be happy cos I'll be able to upload more pictures so I shall then turn this thread into the Complete Helsinki Picture Show. But of course I'll have much more after that...when I move back here, of course!
Thanks for listening to my insessant ramblin. Hope you all know now what a great place this is!
...... so you'll be leaving forever? 
. That's why I felt home there too, and that's why I'm so fuckin homesick now...Damn, I feel so bad here 
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