"I hate the way you always twist the truth to fit your twisted point of view"
I fucking hate how I'm the one who did everything right, and made the sacrifices, and paid the money and made the effort, and then I'm the one who ends up sitting at home alone, wondering why I'm the one who ends up feeling like the most worthless piece of shit ever created, with little hope in sight?
It doesn't make sense sometimes. I should be the happy one, because I was done wrong. I should have found someone and they should treat me as great as i treat them. but it doesn't work that way. I find someone perfect, and they prefer to be treated like shit by their ex. When did it become a crime to show courtesy and respect, and to romance a girl? Is the world so fucked that a girl would prefer to be ignored and ridiculed by their other half? I didn't realise mental abuse was a turn on.
I hate all girls who think that I am not on their level, that somehow the way that they look and act is better than how i look and act. Fuck them. Take a fucking chance to look at who I am, what I am, and how I feel. I am surprisingly deeper than you think. I deserve better than to be ignored, and ignored, and then spurned for no other reason than that you've discovered there are other guys who might be better looking than me. Let me tell you something, I have something they don't. I have a personality than you could drown in, I can say things and show you affections other people could never fathom in their whole lifetime. And I can show so much love. All I want is to be loved in return, I'd hate to think that I'm asking the world.
In conclusion, fuck you Emma Yau. Fuck you to hell, you deserve whatever comes to you in this life. It will be recompense for absolutely ripping out my heart, and leaving me unable to go through a single day without remembering something about you that depresses me. I hope that you never find happiness because you don't deserve it after the way you treated me. The only thing you deserve is to grow old alone, and look back and realise how different your life would have been if you had truly known me, because I showed you unerring love the likes of which you will never receive again. Thank you for letting me out, so that I can at least try and meet someone who will succeed where you monumentally fucked up. When I am happy again, I will remember you, because you are the pinnacle of how not to treat a person, and I will always remember that. You destroyed the biggest part of me, and I'm going to start again.
"A metal heart is hard to tear apart"
/rant
sorry guys, don't even bother reading this! I needed to vent in the biggest way, due to a stupid, selfish whore-devil. I feel so much better now, I just needed to get these feelings out.
I fucking hate how I'm the one who did everything right, and made the sacrifices, and paid the money and made the effort, and then I'm the one who ends up sitting at home alone, wondering why I'm the one who ends up feeling like the most worthless piece of shit ever created, with little hope in sight?
It doesn't make sense sometimes. I should be the happy one, because I was done wrong. I should have found someone and they should treat me as great as i treat them. but it doesn't work that way. I find someone perfect, and they prefer to be treated like shit by their ex. When did it become a crime to show courtesy and respect, and to romance a girl? Is the world so fucked that a girl would prefer to be ignored and ridiculed by their other half? I didn't realise mental abuse was a turn on.
I hate all girls who think that I am not on their level, that somehow the way that they look and act is better than how i look and act. Fuck them. Take a fucking chance to look at who I am, what I am, and how I feel. I am surprisingly deeper than you think. I deserve better than to be ignored, and ignored, and then spurned for no other reason than that you've discovered there are other guys who might be better looking than me. Let me tell you something, I have something they don't. I have a personality than you could drown in, I can say things and show you affections other people could never fathom in their whole lifetime. And I can show so much love. All I want is to be loved in return, I'd hate to think that I'm asking the world.
In conclusion, fuck you Emma Yau. Fuck you to hell, you deserve whatever comes to you in this life. It will be recompense for absolutely ripping out my heart, and leaving me unable to go through a single day without remembering something about you that depresses me. I hope that you never find happiness because you don't deserve it after the way you treated me. The only thing you deserve is to grow old alone, and look back and realise how different your life would have been if you had truly known me, because I showed you unerring love the likes of which you will never receive again. Thank you for letting me out, so that I can at least try and meet someone who will succeed where you monumentally fucked up. When I am happy again, I will remember you, because you are the pinnacle of how not to treat a person, and I will always remember that. You destroyed the biggest part of me, and I'm going to start again.
"A metal heart is hard to tear apart"
/rant
sorry guys, don't even bother reading this! I needed to vent in the biggest way, due to a stupid, selfish whore-devil. I feel so much better now, I just needed to get these feelings out.
