no, eipä mitään!
Mä menin sinne jo about seittemältä
Mulla keikka ei menny yhtä hyvin
No, mä voin panna tänne saman minkä mä maidenin sivuille kirjotin:
I'd like to share my story with you. The story of how what would've been the gig of my dreams turned into a nightmare. It all happened yesterday. Children of Bodom were playing at Nosturi in Helsinki and I'd been waiting for the gig with the same huge excitement as when I first saw the gig announced, I could not fucking wait. I was supposed to go with a friend of mine, but it turned out she couldn't make it, so I went alone. It did feel a bit scary, but hey, I can take care of myself I thought and wouldn't miss the gig for anything in the world either, so I went.
First I waited outside Nosturi for some 3½h. It was FREEZING. When we finally got in, I ran to the stage and was one person from front row, things were going absolutely brilliant! Before the gig was due to start there was still a ~2½h wait. Next to me I had 3 annoying teenage girls, one of them was pushing me all the time trying to make room for herself, which there really wasn't. To the left of me was a girl in a wheelchair & her friend. When I first saw her I was like "what the fuck?! who the hell takes a wheel chair front row?".
So the gig started. I'd managed to get front row now and I was right in front of Henkka, not far away at all from Alexi. I was beyond excited, I was headbanging and screaming from the bottom of my heart and it was all so perfect, Laiho was looking my way and Henkka had no shirt on. It all went well for 10mins or so, but then that damn girl I mentioned earlier pushed herself front row with a yell "OMG! OMG! OMG! aaaaaaah! iiiiiiiiih! I'm front row! OMG! OMG! OMG!". The result of this was, that I got even more smashed against the wheel chair next to me. At times I was almost lying in the girls lap... It was very painful. I tried pushing the people away from me and I told the annoying girl to fuck off and make some room for me cause I was being SMASHED. Well, she didn't get the fucking point or something.
Laiho was keeping an eye on me (or then he was looking my way for some other reason...) and so was the security guy in front of me. I was getting more and more pushed against the wheelchair all the time and there was nothing I could do because the crowd was going wild. After some 15 minutes of the gig had passed, my left foot was stuck between the wheelchair and the fence in front of us. The wheelchair wouldn't move one single bit cause the brakes were on. The girl in the wheelchair & her friend were telling the security guy in front of us to lift away the wheelchair cause it otherwise could break...he asked them why the hell the brought it there in the first place and said there was no way they could get it away from there because of the crowd.
At this point I knew, that if I didn't get out of there within minutes, the bones in my legs would start snapping and cracking one after one. Some parts were hurting so much I was almost sure I'd broken something already, and my left knee was getting turned as my leg was stuck in front of the wheelchair. The security guy tried getting me away from there, but my foot was stuck and the crowd was pushing and pushing from every direction so he had to call for help. I had two strong guys trying to get me up, but half way over the fence my foot was still stuck. At a time I was just screaming cause it hurt so much. Finally they got me up and I had to walk to the side from where I watched the rest of the gig - behind a big amp. After a while I saw Alexi talking to Henkka pointing to where I'd been standing, saying something including 'vittu', and making a gesture upwards with his hand. I can't know if they were talking about me, of course, but it looked like it.
Ms. wheelchair & her friend were also taken up from there, but as the security guys didn't know what the hell to do with them, without her wheelchair still down in the front, they got to sit in front of the fence. I was so pissed. After another 15 mins I almost got in the middle of a fight started by a drunk guy and got my share of hits. After a while I had some guy harrassing me. I really tried to enjoy the gig anyways.
In the end of the gig Roope jumped down from the stage and Alexi & Jaska went around giving people high 5's. I was so to the left I thought I'd never get even near anyone of them, or that they'd even see me, but when Alexi came my way, I stretched out my hand anyway. He quickly slapped the hands of the others around me and then reached over the amp towards me. He didn't reach my hand at first, so I thought ok that was it, but then he reached out again, looked me in the eyes and held my hand for a few seconds. It all lasted maybe 3sec, but those three seconds made it all worth it somehow. After a while Jaska came by and I got to touch his hand too.
When the gig ended I tried calling a cab, but the number didn't work, so 2am I had to walk back to the hotel. Every step was pain. I don't know if I should be angry or cry, I've done both but right now I just feel empty. I'd looked forward to that gig soo much and COB mean the world to me. My parents think I should get paid some compensation by the organisators, but I couldn't care less about money. The only thing I want, is that people learn something out of this and wheelchair users (who I have nothing against, don't get me wrong here) realize the danger they expose others to if they get down in the front. Things work fine out there when there's just people, but when a solid object like a wheelchair that won't move is put there...it gets ugly. I don't give a fuck about my bruises (I just hope it looks ugly and nothing's broken), I'm happy nothing happened to my arms (except some bruises) so I can still play guitar & I don't need no compensation paid to me...no money in this world will get me that Children of Bodom gig back.
että silleen...mutta vitun kova keikka oli silti!!!