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[Deliverance6]

Since I am new to the forum and realize that many newcomers may post annoying threads, bear with me.
I would like to hear about everyones personal feelings about their favorite song. What significance does it have in their life. What does it mean to you personally, what does it make you remember(a time, place, person, situation etc.).
Im not so interested in what Jonas meant as much as what you got out of it.
My biggest thought is the song "strained" from TD. I was then a heroin junky and was back and forth from Detroit to home every day. I had alot of time to think about my personal hell on those long car rides, always listening to katatonia. I wanted my addiction to be over desperately. The lyrics " End, sometimes a start for others. End, I dont know the word beginning" translated for me (personally) into the struggle for a new beginning and my hopelessness in being unable to achieve that goal. The lyrics "sometimes fear is power, like when I lost controll" Represented to me personally that the only power that I had was fear ( of being dope sick) and that fear drove me to do what I had to do to stay high. "Like when I lost control" Jesus, I certainly had lost control. " This time it has to come to an end". Everyday on the way home I would tell myself that this would be the last time, I wouldnt do it again tomorrow. I knew that things would get worse for me (if that was possible) if I kept on doing what I was doing, I would die. And then the last two lines " I'd like to try to live my life again, I'd like to see where I was going wrong". I wanted to try again tomorrow, but I didnt have any belief in myself. I wanted to know how it was that I could fuck up so badly every day. Where was I going wrong. All I knew was that I was fucked up and that today was already ruined.
And then the next day the song would start over, and so would my life- day in- day out.
This is just one of my personal experiences with relating to katatonia.
Hoping this is an appropriate thread.

 

[Deliverance6]

My feelings are hurt.HAHAHA
Just trying to get to know ya all.
It would be lengthy writing I guess.
Eventually I will just post to myself, but thats not as fun.
I joke.
At least tell me this is a stupid idea.

 

[shadedlife]

It isn't a stupid idea in the least.

mine at the moment is Tonight's Music from LFDGD.

and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun

there are so many happy people out there. I'm not one of them - and none of them seem to be able(or willing, at times) to help me.

how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness
would anyone follow me further down
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong
not with the world but me

there is nothing certain in my existance except for the darkness and the pain. No-one's going on this trip but myself. I need someone to tell me what is wrong, because i don't know what it is, and i know that it is not the world(as fucked up as it may be).

tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of her

I try to be wishful, but i always end up holding onto false hopes and fake dreams. Everything I see, everything i do, everything i think about ties in with my current love interest.

those are just key points, i guess. The song is a perfect fit to me.

 

[DeepInMisery]

I like to keep these things to myself and not so much post them over the internet

 

[Deliverance6]

I understand deepinmisery .
Thank you shaded life, for letting us in. WE ARE NOT ALONE.
I guess I just want to know that people are as affected by Katatonia as I am. Sometimes I feel like the only person on earth that has (what I think is) a deep connection with Katatonia. I KNOW this is not true. Sometimes I feel over enthusiastic or that people cant relate with me since I have such profound feelings for a band that I have never met. And sometimes I feel like an obsessed idiot. I am one man in a sea of many. Noone.
Jesus Im gonna write myself into depression.
Anyway, If you feel like enlightening us as to a personal experience with a song or a CD that is awesome. If not, I completely understand.

 

[Varg-]

 

[ether]

oh well katatonia lyrics are not related to a particular event in my life, only to general sensations you feel when you are down or something bad has happened.


I recognize myself in "chrome" and "deadhouse" lyrics, especially with the feeling of apathy and isolation and the desire to change my situation "to make something happen". same thing with "Day": "let's stay here for a while is something gonna happen today", I often had that feeling of being more dead than alive...
" I trusted you, you lied", that happens quite often...
"i keep on living in this my only whish, that life will be good someday","I live cos' I need more light", these lines encouraged me in my dark moments...
"i'd like to try to live my life again", who has never thought how things would have been if only...
the list is long, but katatonia lyrics are perfect when you are depressed...

well fortunately I rarely feel so bad (but i used to), anyways everyone has or had some difficult moments in life and sometimes it happens to be quite depressed and discouraged, especially when nothing works as you whished. In these case music can help a lot to feel better!

 

[valafar]

yeah...
i agree with the feeling in "teargas"...
when your girl goes away with another one...

i feel so fuckin miserable with "tonight's music"...
so lonely and forlorn...

i feel so full of rage in "ghost of the sun"...

damn this is so emotional music!!

 

[Drynwhyl]

i'm not going to be a soul-voyauer or something. as i said before most Katatonia lines i relate to my life experience are too personal to be shared this way. maybe it's kinda strange or i'm going too deep in it, but i see and discover in almost every lyrical verse something i can compare to myself. maybe a few examples along this line..
"Tonight's Music" as a whole can often be set as a soundtrack to my evening mood..
"somehow i never leave this deadhouse, somehow i don't mind being gone.." i guess it's a thought that haunts me permanent, use to think often about it and try to turn it in something less utter.
"if we part my pulse will guide you through.." is something i wish i'm able to do and to promise every close to me person.
"old light and new colours your picture hangs in the night, is this the right time to set one free and go away.." recognize myself in this situation too, standing on the other side though, when you're left alone without knowing the reasons, without chance to change it - "so much i want to ask you, you have no time to let me do so..."

for all that Katatonia is the cure to overcome such weakness..

 

[Ejay]

That's some story . And thanks for sharing it. I couldn't (at this particular time) pull out an example on how a certain piece of Katatonia's music have affected me. However, I guess I have found that at times their music have helped me to drag myself out of the holes (read into that whatever you wish ) I've been in.

Well, one example would be DoDS. That album kind of helped me through alot of teen angst, like hopelessness, fear of death etc. Slightly off topic, but my guess would be that Jonas and Anders went through similar emotions when they wrote the album. As you "grow up" emotionally, those feelings can be hard to relate to. This is probably why the band distance themselves from the album today. But hey, this is me speculating.

Since I am new to the forum and realize that many newcomers may post annoying threads, bear with me.
I would like to hear about everyones personal feelings about their favorite song. What significance does it have in their life. What does it mean to you personally, what does it make you remember(a time, place, person, situation etc.).
Im not so interested in what Jonas meant as much as what you got out of it.
My biggest thought is the song "strained" from TD. I was then a heroin junky and was back and forth from Detroit to home every day. I had alot of time to think about my personal hell on those long car rides, always listening to katatonia. I wanted my addiction to be over desperately. The lyrics " End, sometimes a start for others. End, I dont know the word beginning" translated for me (personally) into the struggle for a new beginning and my hopelessness in being unable to achieve that goal. The lyrics "sometimes fear is power, like when I lost controll" Represented to me personally that the only power that I had was fear ( of being dope sick) and that fear drove me to do what I had to do to stay high. "Like when I lost control" Jesus, I certainly had lost control. " This time it has to come to an end". Everyday on the way home I would tell myself that this would be the last time, I wouldnt do it again tomorrow. I knew that things would get worse for me (if that was possible) if I kept on doing what I was doing, I would die. And then the last two lines " I'd like to try to live my life again, I'd like to see where I was going wrong". I wanted to try again tomorrow, but I didnt have any belief in myself. I wanted to know how it was that I could fuck up so badly every day. Where was I going wrong. All I knew was that I was fucked up and that today was already ruined.
And then the next day the song would start over, and so would my life- day in- day out.
This is just one of my personal experiences with relating to katatonia.
Hoping this is an appropriate thread.