. And why Paul scares me sometimes!!!
I want to feel something from a singer or musician - otherwise all you have is a meaningless series of notes......and that makes...me...
Hmmm... After you put it that way I want to rephrase some things I wrote earlier, and realize I can be a self-deluded ass sometimes. This isn't Matt beating himself up, as we are all self-deludued every now and again, and we are all still imperfect and lovable nonetheless.
I really try to avoid using the phrases "You make me...", "They make me...", and "He/She/It makes me...". The truth is only I make me feel any emotion. My body senses the vibration of the notes. My mind makes judgments about them. My soul feels the emotions through my body's physical sensations that it produces. I may make me feel a certain way over something you did, but I made me feel it. And I certainly don't think that such responsibility means I have control necessarily over said emotions
That being said (or written) I consider myself rather egocentric to think that I create emotions in others. Sure I fantasize about being able to control people as much as anyone else, but it's just that, a , n illusion (albeit a really fun one sometimes). I would probably make myself really depressed if such an illusion ever became reality anyways. While no one lives in a vacuum and I feel that we are all interconnected in many mysterious ways we do not fully understand, I am just playing a victim if I blame my emotions on another. Why then would I be beneficial to encourage such a mentality in another?
We all have an energy. We use it through our thoughts, emotions, and deeds. Said energy reaches out and touches others (sometimes intentionally. sometimes not). Others than use that energy to create their own thoughts and feelings, and depending on the energy I give out, others have an easier or harder time creating a certain emotion with it. And sometimes I find myself smart (or not) for considering (or lack thereof) what emotions my energy is most useful for in their emotional creativity. To either deny someone the power to create their own emotions or also to deny someone the power to create energy that I can use, is, to me, a failure to acknowledge their soul and spirit (This goes for all things, not just people).
Such philosophy does not stop me from being a total ham at times, and I do revel in it when I know my energy was given to someone in such a way that they created powerful emotions in themselves from it. I get this rush not only when singing or performing and the response thereof, but from conversation and other interactions as well (even forum posting, though a hell of a lot is lost through the internet- or any ther medium that isn't being to being without technology).
That being said I look forward to having your awesome vocal spirit touch me Saturday night in Santa Ana and I look forward to making myself happy, elated, sad, scared, disgusted, angry, lustful, blissful, ecstatic, and loving with that spirit.
"Take not thy thunder from us,
But take away our pride."