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AxeOfDarkness

AxeOfDarkness

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i figured id share somthing with everyone....
today was a sad day in my life for my loving dog after 10 1/2 yrs or so of being with me and my family has passed on. she has been sick for a couple months now but finaly got to the point where there is nothing more we can do about it... so my family and I took the dog to the vet and we all watched as the vet injected her with the IV... she gave a final breath and yelping gasp as she looked into my eyes than she faded away.... she was such a great dog and i wish it never would have had to happen but things do happen. so after i listen to stairway to heaven a few times followed by ressurection (fear factory ressurection) the only thing making me feel better right now is the uplifting power of my amon amarth cds... finaly i think where the silent gods stand guard is an outstanding song! now its one of my favorites where as before i never liked it at all... she was a great family member and will be remembered by all of us... everything we went through she went through with us... all the problems with friends and family she was always there to comfort us and will live on in our hearts forever...:waah:

all i can hope for now is for amon amarth to make it to florida so i can hear them play where the silent gods stand guard and thousand years of oppression and all the other great songs they have to this effect... that would surely make me feel alot better...
 
Hey,Im really sorry for you!I have now four dogs and know that when an old femal dog I had died years ago I was exactly the same.Wish you to be happy again soon!Salute!
 
thanx dude... its gonna be alot different without her... if you only knew what a great dog she was... i just wish she wouldnt have gotten so sick cause she still had a good few years left in her. but sometimes you gotta let go... hails cadarn!

and Hailz to Lucky DEC.25 1992?- MARCH 6, 2003
 
As a loving, proud dog owner, I know the heartfelt pain & sorrow you're going through right now. Just remember that Lucky is in a better place, a Valhalla for dogs if you will, and you should rest easier once the mourning passes. Hails to you & Lucky.
 
Hails to markgugs!! it truely is a painful event for me... im starting to feel a little better now (i finaly just ate something for the first time in the past few days, havent eaten since i first found out i would have to do this) Hails to Lucky!
 
Im really sorry for you mate, I know what it must feel like, I have a dog who's been with me from the day I started school 11 years ago...
It will be really painful to loose her...
 
I'm very sorry for you man. I have a dog too, he's not too intelligent but a cool fucking guy....and I tell you, I'll be out of it once he dies. Cause he's a really good friend. We had a Basset hound, our Aunts actually, that stayed here all summer...fucking lovable little fellow....found out last year that he was dead cause he had his body full of tumours. So I feel with you man, believe me I know what I'm talking about...
 
I'm really sorry for you too, my Dog will soon go to the Dog's Valhalla too, he has some Problems with his Heart, but until this time comes, I will have many fun with him.
I don't want that he gets the injection at the doctors office, in those cold and clean rooms.
For you I hope it will soon be better.
It often helps me, to think he or she will be at a better place, so raise your horn and remember the good times.
 
thanks alot guys... today was the first time i came home from school and lucky wasnt there to greet me... thats a bad feeling but im feeling alot better now that i slept the nite by... i wish i got to realy play with her that last days of her life but she was so backed up with fluid her entire stomach area and hind legs were all fat that she couldnt even run around or even walk for a long period of time. the last people to play ball with her successfuly were a couple friends of mine a few weeks ago. since then she couldnt walk. but its all cool... im moving on...
but you know whats realy gay and fucking stupid!!! i havent been able to concentrate on school and everything the past while (which realy sucks cause i cant afford to fail a single class or anything) and im failing my economics class and i told my teacher what happened and asked if there was something i could do to make it up and all and he told me "you can do the same thing everyone else does and just hope you pass!" WHAT A MOTHER FUCKER!!!! i wanted to put a sword through his head! has no fucking heart in him... damn gay ass bitch... all my other teachers are giving me a chance... but ill do something about it... im gonna put acid in his coffee or something... or im gonna put a bag of crack in his desk and report him saying its his!! ha ha
and i told one of my friends that my dog died and he just laughed!!! im gonna kill him too!!! hes a big fucking Poser anyway... has like 100 bands on his folders and cant name an album, song or anything about any of the bands he has on there!! ha ha, big poser fag... and he spelt terrorizer wrong ha ha...

hails to Aggressor, Patric, Einar and Lucky!!!
 
Yeah dude, you're teacher does sounds like a real idiot!
I dont think anyone who ever has had a dog or any other pet for that sake that he or she has loved would be that cold...
People might say, its just a dog, but to you its so much more its a friend who's been there through good times and bad times.
In many ways a dog might be the best friend you ever can have, because a dog would never turn its back on you...
 
Well I've been in a dark mood all evening so when I read your post there it made me quite sad. Dogs are the fucking shit man, it's one of the few animals that I've got a close, close relationship to. And while I'm at it, why didn't you physically assault that teacher? What he did was one of the most disrespectul shit I've ever heard of. I couldn't control my temper if I heard that shit. Any thoughts of getting a new dog, or would that be too much like disrespecting/replacing your old one? Glad you're better, though.
 
yeah, most people on this planet are pure assholes, I hate those stupid bastards, your father or mother or sister or so could die and they wouldn't care 'bout your feelings
but I think not if one just stands up and tell them, what great assholes they are and that they must have such a situation first to understand
it's good that you're getting better
 
i would have put my boot through his body but ive had a long life and have learned to control my temper that way, i learned to stop and think (or think realy fast before i do something) and if i would have done that i probably would end up in prison or something for a while and that would just make it all worse you know...
i thought for a while before i put her to sleep about how it would be to get a new dog and if my mom would even let me (she says no but you know it will happen one day)... if i do decide that i want a new one im gonna wait a little bit and get a new happy puppy, the one that has the same reaction the first time lucky saw me is most likely the one for maybe and possibly a lucky that came back to see me or something like that.
@einhar- ive been through a time in m life already where my dad could die at any moment, few years ago my dad went through multiple heart attacks and i knew i could lose him at any instant and that was a bad time in life to especialy since i had alot going on at that time... but he got a quad- bypass surgery after after time went by he got all better but, still hes had the problems before and hes a contractor (as in building and construction stuff) so he does alot of heavy work and stuff so theres no saying that it might just happen again and maybe this time things may not go so well... and then my teacher still wouldnt give a shit!!
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i am feeling better i just gotta get out and do something with some friends to help me forget it all. right now i got that pain on my heart that feels like a bruise on it or something (you know what i mean?)
from all this stress... it all happened so fast, got home on monday and found out we were taking her to the vet, im thinking "alright shes gonna get all better now!! yayyy!!" than a couple hours later i find out shes in realy bad shape and possibly had heart worms and liver failure and there not much you can do.. then on wed. the blood test comes back and i found out that theres two roads... 1- we can spend thousands and thousands of dollars that we dont have to spare at the time for the slight chance (i think it was like a 20% chance or something) that she will get better. or 2-take her in and have her put out of her misery... which is what we had to do... if i were rich or something i would have gone with #1 but its to much of a risk for us right now. then the next thing you know its thur. and were at the vet putting her down... it happened so fast. i thought she was gonna have a good couple months left with us atleast but theres not much that you can do.

pretty soon my scanner will be running again and ill be able to post a picture of here from when i first got her but until then....
 
Hey!So its not only here in Italy that the teachers are really fucked up in the brain(...in the ass too)and really you dont know the problems I had when I was at school with these dickheads!.The best gift you could do to your teacher is for real to buy in a little a new dog,a pitbull maybe,and to take some hour of hunt by some park.With him running naked and the dog after him!!!
 
yeah, almost all the teachers here suck ass but for the most part they have hearts, but this dumb ass doesnt even know what a heart is....
i feel almost all better now! not realy in pain now, i just miss her now is all... im remembering the times when id be eating something and shed beg by resting her head in my lap and giving me those eyes... good times...
 
:) Even they are cool!I have by the field where are the dogs even seven of them(and four small ones since last week),they are really curious and its so relaxing to stare at them!
 
i used to relax watching my dog chase all the squirrels away in the back yard...damn squirrels always chewing on all the stuff back there and eating holes in my roof!!! she was one hell of a squirrel chasing machine! caught many a rodent in her day... and maimed a few cats (not that i dont like cats but they shouldnt have been in my back yard!)
 
Isnt it a great feeling to have an intimate bond with another being or creature... unfortunately one of the painstakes of being mortal is the seperation anxiety and pain of having them torn from us, May you have good tidings in your silent battle of loss...
Death is a blessing and curse one would say, neh?

Animals are really great, I just wish their life spans we're longer... and Humans that cannot understand the bonds between man and animal aren't very intellegent...
 
well now that i have slept a few days i think i finaly fell all better now! i went out and had a good time with some friends and everyone helped me forget it all... im always gonna feel sad that shes gone but it was all for the better and this things happen. one day i will see her again and it will be the best feeling ever, its one of the things to look foward to after i die...
though i dont know any of you and you all live far away all your sympathy was actualy one of the things to help me through it all!! knowing that there actualy are people out there who care and all gives you a good feeling... i just wanna say thanks to everyone who was here and supported me and it was very much appreciated!!

Hails to you all!!!​
NP: Iron Maiden-Hallowed Be Thy Name​
 
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