Ok, I'm putting my foot down. Here's a reality check for Lady_Laiho.
*Clears throat*
Alright. Now, I'm trying not to be mean here and I don't want you to feel bad in anyway.
Say you did meet Alexi in person. Let's just say that since you're so infatuated with Alexi he wants to take you to bed because you're an easy score. Would you sleep with him? If you did then what he would be giving you isn't love. It's physical satisfaction for him.
It doesn't take just five minutes of talking with him to get him to love you. Love is something that grows over time when you get to know a person. Just because you love him so deeply means he's going to probably take advantage of you, hump you and leave you. Why would you want that?
Your just an other girl for him, nothing special. There's so many fans who love him like you do and he's probably thinking, "hey, free pussy!" So what makes you think that he's going to get to know you as an individual instead of viewing you as an object? You're going to get badly hurt.
Now, I know it's totally tempting because he is good looking. But why not grab a guy who will treat you right? There's many other men out there that'd like to have you and get to know you for whom you really are. And damn, some of them are pretty good-looking too.
I'm just saying; think about this. I know this might have been posted before but I'm just suming it up once again.
Hey, I might be totally wrong about this but this is just my opinion. If you'd like to talk about this please feel free to add me to your msn or shoot me an email. I think some of us on this board would like to help you. Hell, some of us even had past fascinations with Alexi as well. We got over it and so can you.
Hang in there, k?