Lately I've been really down, just not feeling very well about anything. I just really dont find myself caring about anything, work, school, my normal home life. It seems like the only things I really care about are Bianca, my close friends, and the band (friends and doing what i love). On top of that, I've been letting my anger and anxiety go loose on some of my friends including Bianca, and I know its really upsetting her, just seeing myself do that upsets me even more. And I have to show her that Im going to be around forever and Im not always going to be like this. And even with all this just, emotional distress, I still have my shitty health, which gets worse as the stress increases.
This past week has been a good one. I feel like Im slowly learning the ropes of the mortgage business, so now I can understand the problems people are coming to me with. Not a lot, but a little bit, so it helps me. The first 2 classes are now over, and I still have some shit to take care of, but for the most part, its a pretty big load off my shoulders, and to top it all off, I finally got the car Ive always wanted, and it makes me really proud and happy. (I want to post pictures as soon as I get the time to take them). So last night I was driving home on 295 which is a nearby state highway that I use to get to and from work and a bunch of other places around here in south Jersey. Its a 65 MPH zone, and its a not so frequently camped spot. So I get on the highway and I take off because honestly, I havent yet. Ive been driving carefully, obeying all posted speed limits, and traffic laws. So I see how fast I can get up to 60, then I go for 100. I get to what looks like 100 when I see a cop camping to my right. I keep going (at about 100 MPH, and I slow down for the next exit ramp he catches up, pulls me over, and slams me with:
39:4-98 : Excessive Speeding [Bracket 6: 30-34 MPH] 96 MPH in a 65 MPH zone. (5 Points)
39:4-96 : Reckless Driving (5 Points)
Fines are doubled in a 65, and that amount of points will probably get my license suspended for 30 days Ill lose my job, and I wont be able to pay for the car or insurance. I wont have anyway to get to and from places, I wont be able to pay for college (yes I pay for my own school, car, insurance, everything but rent I have to pay on my own). So now I need to hire a lawyer and use my tax return money to pay him and the fines, so that I can walk away with my license. And Im sure my insurance will jump about 400 bucks more a year.
So I guess I was finally getting out of this slump of a mood, and I needed someone to pull me back down to earth and that someone was the New Jersey State Police.
This past week has been a good one. I feel like Im slowly learning the ropes of the mortgage business, so now I can understand the problems people are coming to me with. Not a lot, but a little bit, so it helps me. The first 2 classes are now over, and I still have some shit to take care of, but for the most part, its a pretty big load off my shoulders, and to top it all off, I finally got the car Ive always wanted, and it makes me really proud and happy. (I want to post pictures as soon as I get the time to take them). So last night I was driving home on 295 which is a nearby state highway that I use to get to and from work and a bunch of other places around here in south Jersey. Its a 65 MPH zone, and its a not so frequently camped spot. So I get on the highway and I take off because honestly, I havent yet. Ive been driving carefully, obeying all posted speed limits, and traffic laws. So I see how fast I can get up to 60, then I go for 100. I get to what looks like 100 when I see a cop camping to my right. I keep going (at about 100 MPH, and I slow down for the next exit ramp he catches up, pulls me over, and slams me with:
39:4-98 : Excessive Speeding [Bracket 6: 30-34 MPH] 96 MPH in a 65 MPH zone. (5 Points)
39:4-96 : Reckless Driving (5 Points)
Fines are doubled in a 65, and that amount of points will probably get my license suspended for 30 days Ill lose my job, and I wont be able to pay for the car or insurance. I wont have anyway to get to and from places, I wont be able to pay for college (yes I pay for my own school, car, insurance, everything but rent I have to pay on my own). So now I need to hire a lawyer and use my tax return money to pay him and the fines, so that I can walk away with my license. And Im sure my insurance will jump about 400 bucks more a year.
So I guess I was finally getting out of this slump of a mood, and I needed someone to pull me back down to earth and that someone was the New Jersey State Police.
