Originally posted by 7 Dying Trees
Anyone who's not been suicidal outside teenage angst (ie slit my wrists crosswise etc) will not understand what can go through your head at that point. You stand at the tunnel exit, knowing that jumping there will leave you a bloody electrified corpse. You feel the wind of the train approaching and just think "what if?" and then "why not?". You think that if you do that that everything will go away, all the crap that you cannot cope with, kind of like the thing that's eating the inside of your head out and has turned your thougt processes into one big knot you can't untie no matter how hard you try. It takes a lot to push someone that far where there is very litle to cling on to and when everything has fallen apart.
When it happens, just find something to attach yourself to. SOmething good that you do enjoy and build yourself up with that as a base. Also see someone ifit's serious. If it has never gone away then it may be linked to depression.
There's always a way out, and strength of character comes from finding that way. Just tell yourself you are stronger and don't give up.