Internet addiction (emo thread alert (not really))

Erik

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So as you might know you know, I quit forums a while ago. It didn't really work. I blocked access to UM and some other forums I used to visit in my hosts file, and that worked well for a while. I didn't go to forums.

Did it reduce my overall computer usage and help me focus on school and music and other things that matter? No. I still fucked around on the Internet all the time, just randomly browsing shit and talking to people on ICQ and IRC.

So then my network card broke down for some reason I still don't know (almost as if some fuckin deity is trying to give me signs here, eh) so I proper couldn't access the Internet at all for like a week or more, I don't remember. I called support and everything was fine on their end, and not really having the energy to find out what was fucked and feeling that no Internet would only do me good anyway, I ignored it.

This was exam week. I had two exams that week that I desperately needed to study for. Having no Internet didn't help. I STILL was on the computer all the fucking time, just wasting time. I don't even know what I did, but the days passed and I studied a little for the first exam the night before it. I failed that exam. The other exam, a few days later, I didn't even go to. I couldn't bring myself to study for it; I had all the handouts and books and everything; couldn't bring myself to read them. I didn't even GO to that exam. I put on clothes and whatnot, went to school, and when I was real close I was sort of overwhelmed with such a fuckin strong desire not to go that I turned back home instead. Not good, I know. My network card had magically started working again by now.

So then I relented & relapsed, installed a new OS, with my old hosts file gone I could access UM and forums again. So I did, and here I am.
 
Do you get to re-take those exams you failed/didn't turn up for? If not, what will happen then?

You might know that I study law now, which is a pretty time consuming activity. Although it can be a tad boring now and then, the fact that I am one of the few souls in this country who actually were talented/lucky enough to be immatriculated for this law master program is a HUGE motivating factor. I know that your sound engineering course is a course for more or less talented people; what with the difficult tests you had to pass and so on. Think about what you can do with that education. Producing metal albums for a living, for instance. Of course that'd be hard to achieve, but still. The Internet is an "instant kick", but it really isn't something that will do you good in the long run. Having a proper education, on the other hand, can open a large number of doors for you, and may change your life for the better.

If you find it boring to read through the curriculum, take small breaks every hour, 10-15 minutes, where you listen to music, take a snus or just let some energy out. I find that it works for me (exept the snus bit ;p ).

If you find that you can't cope with school, then finding a job would be a good idea - it gets you out of the house. It might be hard to get jobs in the Piteå area, but I s'pose it's always worth a shot.
 
sorry to hear about your dilemma dude.
I am with Henrikmain, look for a job if possible. Even 10-15 hours a week would be enough. Would get you out and meeting new people and learn some skills.

Do some outdoor activities if you will excercise, get a innexpensive bike or something. Can get you places fast you would normally not get to fast. Would even help with scooping around for a job a little further then campus and to get to it.

I did not make many friends in college either, I went to school locally though, and then straight to work right after classes, but I cannot imagine not being able to meet new people in school and shooting the shit with them. I know you are kind of "set in your ways" as far as who you hang with, but I cannot imagine not having common values with people in that school ... sounds like a bunch of brilliant people go there.

Getting out more, would help tremendously.
 
Erik said:
I have a bike dude. Try being a student in Sweden without a bike, heh, it's a whole different culture than in the US. Very few people actually have a car while in college.

Anyhoo, thanks for the tips.

hehe, ok ... do you have any hot 30 something tall blonde lady teachers riding them? :OMG:
 
Yo Erik:

It's good to see that you have acknowledged the problem. That's always good; it's a step that many people with addictions cannot get to.

As for doing something about it? There are a lot of things you could do. I got worried about spending THREE hours a day on the net, so I quit this place for a long while. Now, after the comeback, I never spend more than an hour a night. Let's face it: there's always going to be free time in your life. If not, you'll go fucking crazy. If I was a doctor on the matter, I would prescribe at least three hours of bullshitting a day. I'm one of those people who likes to be productive all the time: if I'm not out with friends or doing social things (a huge deterrent for the internet) or working for class, I'm usually reading or something. But there is always a need for relaxation, and listening to music and dicking around on the net is always a good way to do it.

However: you have to learn to click on that X in the top right corner. It's hard to do, even for me. REFRESH THE PAGE, see if anyone responded! Check my email again. Read reviews on Amazon I don't care about. Sometimes you just have to close the page and get away from the desk.

After that... Yeah, schoolwork would be nice, but there is a big old world outside your house/apt/cave that is your oyster. I know that sounds gay and carpe diem, but it's true. Make some friends. Start a band. Go to pubs. Anything that gets you "out there." And for those days where nothing's hoppin'? Read a good, engrossing book - it'll make you feel smarter and like you're doing something to advance your life. Record some music. Whatever. But there will always be time for school.

I'd suggest going a week without the internet at all (or 10 mins a day at most). You'll be surprised on how much you don't miss it, after a while.
 
i don't have a problem and I listen to depressing music. It depends how it affects you, just force yourself to go somewhere away form your computer to study. I have the same problem, shiny things disttract me, and the intenet is pretty shiny.
 
Erik said:
I spend all of my free time (which isn't technically free time as I'm completely neglecting school and everything else) on the Internet. 14-16 hours a day, I am not bullshitting you.

Holy shit. No wonder you feel this way, it's completely consumed you. So it sounds like the you go from "internet -> sleep", and then "wake up -> internet".

If you had lots of friends close by, do you think you'd still be on the internet? I mean, if you had a close circle of friends, was living at college campus, met a girl, etc...would that distract you from the computer, or do you think you'd make up reasons to stay in at the PC instead?

I felt like I was spending way too much time on the forum this year which is why I went on hiatus for several months. Even now, I'll only pop in a couple of times a week, but you know, I've got the distractions in my life (by my own choosing).

I guess you have to create/force the distractions into your life. There are a million things better than sitting on the web. Geez, the list is endless when you think about it.

Erik said:
I know that I feel better without the Internet; I noticed when I still moved at home but moved from one house to another, and it took a month and a half or so to get Internet connection. I spent a lot more time with friends and whatnot and generally felt relieved, I guess, it was pretty crazy.

There you go. That's half the battle won. Good on you.
 
Hey Erik, quick question, but have you considered saving up some money and dropping out for a year to just hit the road?

It's just that these are the sorts of things you wonder about as you get older, because you can't get that time back. I know it sounds cliched, but since you aren't in any rush for a 9-5 rat race career, don't have a wife and kids, don't own a mortgage, etc, perhaps it's worth considering getting yourself a backpack and a Eurotrain ticket, or venture further away from Europe...

And as odd as it sounds, you already know a bunch of people around the globe. We're all right here! You could literally stay with any/all of us as you moved around.

Let's see:

Me, Gugs, Zod, lurch: New York
Jason: Phillli
Doomcifer, MFJ: New England
Nazi Moose, Demilich: Canada
Some people in the mid-west like lizard
J: Texas
NAD: California
Chief B, Russell: London
Ellestin, Snow2Fall: Germany

Who else is out there? Speak up! My brain hurts.

I guess the point is, you could literally make a travel itinerary based on where we all live. :loco:
 

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