So as you might know you know, I quit forums a while ago. It didn't really work. I blocked access to UM and some other forums I used to visit in my hosts file, and that worked well for a while. I didn't go to forums.
Did it reduce my overall computer usage and help me focus on school and music and other things that matter? No. I still fucked around on the Internet all the time, just randomly browsing shit and talking to people on ICQ and IRC.
So then my network card broke down for some reason I still don't know (almost as if some fuckin deity is trying to give me signs here, eh) so I proper couldn't access the Internet at all for like a week or more, I don't remember. I called support and everything was fine on their end, and not really having the energy to find out what was fucked and feeling that no Internet would only do me good anyway, I ignored it.
This was exam week. I had two exams that week that I desperately needed to study for. Having no Internet didn't help. I STILL was on the computer all the fucking time, just wasting time. I don't even know what I did, but the days passed and I studied a little for the first exam the night before it. I failed that exam. The other exam, a few days later, I didn't even go to. I couldn't bring myself to study for it; I had all the handouts and books and everything; couldn't bring myself to read them. I didn't even GO to that exam. I put on clothes and whatnot, went to school, and when I was real close I was sort of overwhelmed with such a fuckin strong desire not to go that I turned back home instead. Not good, I know. My network card had magically started working again by now.
So then I relented & relapsed, installed a new OS, with my old hosts file gone I could access UM and forums again. So I did, and here I am.
Did it reduce my overall computer usage and help me focus on school and music and other things that matter? No. I still fucked around on the Internet all the time, just randomly browsing shit and talking to people on ICQ and IRC.
So then my network card broke down for some reason I still don't know (almost as if some fuckin deity is trying to give me signs here, eh) so I proper couldn't access the Internet at all for like a week or more, I don't remember. I called support and everything was fine on their end, and not really having the energy to find out what was fucked and feeling that no Internet would only do me good anyway, I ignored it.
This was exam week. I had two exams that week that I desperately needed to study for. Having no Internet didn't help. I STILL was on the computer all the fucking time, just wasting time. I don't even know what I did, but the days passed and I studied a little for the first exam the night before it. I failed that exam. The other exam, a few days later, I didn't even go to. I couldn't bring myself to study for it; I had all the handouts and books and everything; couldn't bring myself to read them. I didn't even GO to that exam. I put on clothes and whatnot, went to school, and when I was real close I was sort of overwhelmed with such a fuckin strong desire not to go that I turned back home instead. Not good, I know. My network card had magically started working again by now.
So then I relented & relapsed, installed a new OS, with my old hosts file gone I could access UM and forums again. So I did, and here I am.