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[CF87]

If I do not post here it's probably because simply do not find the place interesting anymore.

My doctor insists am doing fine so do not plan on dying anytime soon!

A normal ejection fraction is 50,60 and most people do not even have that as an ejection fraction and mine was 30 after 3 months and it's probably been 8,9 months.

Doctors main concern was my left ventricles not working which caused my heart to overwork causing it to expand and than fail and now my left ventricles work normal and my heart has reduced size because is not having trouble pumping blood into my body because the ventricles work.

I did abuse pills and alcohol for the last 5,6 years and started expirimenting with drugs around 15 years old and smoke a lot.

 

[Winter.]

^ I hope you don't abuse pills anymore.

 

[whiskey funeral]

If I do not post here it's probably because simply do not find the place interesting anymore.

My doctor insists am doing fine so do not plan on dying anytime soon!

A normal ejection fraction is 50,60 and most people do not even have that as an ejection fraction and mine was 30 after 3 months and it's probably been 8,9 months.

Doctors main concern was my left ventricles not working which caused my heart to overwork causing it to expand and than fail and now my left ventricles work normal and my heart has reduced size because is not having trouble pumping blood into my body because the ventricles work.

I did abuse pills and alcohol for the last 5,6 years and started expirimenting with drugs around 15 years old and smoke a lot.

So are you fucked up when you make most of your posts here?

 

[CF87]

^ I hope you don't abuse pills anymore.

No. I've always been healthy according to my doctor regardless and work out and eat very healthy and use to mountain bike and was very much an outdoors person an have had jobs that require a lot of exercerise and regardless it's like I am dying. I really don't know what to do about it and doctors have told me I was very healthy when growing up. oh well

My doctors do not have any clue at my age why my heart failed because am so young and told me it has nothing to do with say drinking or popping pills once in awile.

I feel like I am decaying and don't know why. oh well

I look really great and look healthy, but am far from it.

I've been tested for aids and and kinds of shit and do not have anything and really do not know much. I guess just have to deal with it.

Doctors can tell me am alright and just don't believe it because generally feel awful. I was completly sober for months after and due to still being in pain started to smoke and drink again because do not know how else to deal with it because the things that are not good for me actually make me feel better regardless they are killing me.

I know what is it like to be chased by death and now how I am going to die which is something a lot of people do not know or think about.

 

[zabu of nΩd]

Um, I think you might want to find a new doctor dude.

 

[Winter.]

No. I've always been healthy according to my doctor regardless and work out and eat very healthy and use to mountain bike and was very much an outdoors person an have had jobs that require a lot of exercerise and regardless it's like I am dying. I really don't know what to do about it and doctors have told me I was very healthy when growing up. oh well

My doctors do not have any clue at my age why my heart failed because am so young and told me it has nothing to do with say drinking or popping pills once in awile.

I feel like I am decaying and don't know why. oh well

I look really great and look healthy, but am far from it.

I've been tested for aids and and kinds of shit and do not have anything and really do not know much. I guess just have to deal with it.

Doctors can tell me am alright and just don't believe it because generally feel awful. I was completly sober for months after and due to still being in pain started to smoke and drink again because do not know how else to deal with it because the things that are not good for me actually make me feel better regardless they are killing me.

I know what is it like to be chased by death and now how I am going to die which is something a lot of people do not know or think about.

It's really strange how your heart failed and your doctor can't explain it... there seems to be a problem there. Not with you but with your doctor.

Um, I think you might want to find a new doctor dude.

I agree with this. You should get a second opinion DD.