So, here I am on the second of December, one year have past and I cant avoid the nostalgia invading me. So it seems this is good bye my dear friend.
I barely post anything in this forum although I do often visit it, therefore excuse me the intromission in your daily threats, I reckon that posting something that has nothing to do with you is not really neat... but since you are like Katatonia so much as I do, I suppose that more than once have you identified yourself with the lyrics and I'm sure that more than once have you felt all that atmosphere that only Katatonia can create.
So here it comes...
One year exactly has past since I lost one of the most important and beautiful person that I have ever met in my life. He was always smiling, always telling those amazing stories; he always listened to what we had to say, one of a kind, so human, so simple, and so full of life. He changed my perspective, he made me look beyond my selfish life, he made me leave behind all that bullshit that life brings sometimes, he made me focus in what is really important in this path we walk, he made me feel how beautiful was being alive. I owe him so much, I owe him the new person that I' ve become and I regret so much that I never tell him how much I admire him and how much he meant to me, so I can't stop feeling nostalgic tonight for all the things that I should have say and never did.
Today i was listening Saw you drown and I felt a chill down my spine when I heard these lyrics.
"In the water
I saw you drown
Down the water
I saw you drown
As through my shattered sight
You're no longer here
And my heart cries
Sleeping through the light
Another way to change my mind
Never is the day
To leave it all behind
The only way to stay
Until this day, I keep wondering: Why he had to die that way?
When I heard that he died drown at the ocean I closed my eyes trying to figure out the panic and the distress he felt in his last moments. The lifeguards could rescued his body minutes later but it was to late... and then I heard that he was going to have a memorial service I was so pissed of with his family for doing that, he never believed in Church Why his family didn't respect his will, I guess they didn't know his beliefs, even though of this, I walked to the church to say goodbye, I leave at the service because I couldn't stand seeing his beliefs being betrayed. And I didn't want to know where he was going to be buried (until this day I still don't know). I didn't wanted to accept how a good person like him had died Why him above all? Why God didn't choose a rapist, or a murderer? Why he had to point his finger on him and not on all the sick and depraved persons in the world? So at that time I couldn't say goodbye.
A few days after his death, I remembered that I have his book saved in my pc. When I decided to read it I couldn't past the first chapter, it was so painful to me realize that that was the last time that I could hear what he had to say, all his beliefs, all his feelings, everything he was, rest on that book I couldn't read it at that time so I couldn't said goodbye. But i think this is the day to say it, so tonight Im going to read it, and I will say goodbye to you my dear friend.
Rest in peace G. G. R.
I barely post anything in this forum although I do often visit it, therefore excuse me the intromission in your daily threats, I reckon that posting something that has nothing to do with you is not really neat... but since you are like Katatonia so much as I do, I suppose that more than once have you identified yourself with the lyrics and I'm sure that more than once have you felt all that atmosphere that only Katatonia can create.
So here it comes...
One year exactly has past since I lost one of the most important and beautiful person that I have ever met in my life. He was always smiling, always telling those amazing stories; he always listened to what we had to say, one of a kind, so human, so simple, and so full of life. He changed my perspective, he made me look beyond my selfish life, he made me leave behind all that bullshit that life brings sometimes, he made me focus in what is really important in this path we walk, he made me feel how beautiful was being alive. I owe him so much, I owe him the new person that I' ve become and I regret so much that I never tell him how much I admire him and how much he meant to me, so I can't stop feeling nostalgic tonight for all the things that I should have say and never did.
Today i was listening Saw you drown and I felt a chill down my spine when I heard these lyrics.
"In the water
I saw you drown
Down the water
I saw you drown
As through my shattered sight
You're no longer here
And my heart cries
Sleeping through the light
Another way to change my mind
Never is the day
To leave it all behind
The only way to stay
Until this day, I keep wondering: Why he had to die that way?
When I heard that he died drown at the ocean I closed my eyes trying to figure out the panic and the distress he felt in his last moments. The lifeguards could rescued his body minutes later but it was to late... and then I heard that he was going to have a memorial service I was so pissed of with his family for doing that, he never believed in Church Why his family didn't respect his will, I guess they didn't know his beliefs, even though of this, I walked to the church to say goodbye, I leave at the service because I couldn't stand seeing his beliefs being betrayed. And I didn't want to know where he was going to be buried (until this day I still don't know). I didn't wanted to accept how a good person like him had died Why him above all? Why God didn't choose a rapist, or a murderer? Why he had to point his finger on him and not on all the sick and depraved persons in the world? So at that time I couldn't say goodbye.
A few days after his death, I remembered that I have his book saved in my pc. When I decided to read it I couldn't past the first chapter, it was so painful to me realize that that was the last time that I could hear what he had to say, all his beliefs, all his feelings, everything he was, rest on that book I couldn't read it at that time so I couldn't said goodbye. But i think this is the day to say it, so tonight Im going to read it, and I will say goodbye to you my dear friend.
Rest in peace G. G. R.
