panic disorder

I suffered from panic attacks several years back. It was difficult time in my life then (too much alcohol, unemployed, relationships gone fucked etc.). I had always felt awkward in crowded places too. In the end I think it all can be traced down to my crappy childhood ( I think I was 7 years old when I first got a shotgun pulled to my face by alcoholic step-father).

I even got prescribed asthma inhalator for my unexplained difficulties to breathe and massively increased heart rate :D. Well, I didn't even know about panic attacks then and couldn't express myself clearly to the doctor.

But, things started to get better when I got a job. Being in contact with people ALL THE TIME got me kinda used to it, so no stressing anymore. I still don't like crowded places, but it doesn't matter much.

I don't really have a good advice to OP, since his symptoms are much worse than mine and he is faced the things that causes the problem. Alcohol is the only thing that ever helped me, but it can worsen the problem too, so I don't recommend it :D
 
The effect I find is that my opinions and expectations fade and the way this help in panic is that, the initial trigger will come but my reaction will be lessened, so that exponential build up of anxiety and tension just dies at the root. It's also a different route from the building of self esteem route, in that it makes your self esteem (low or high) less important, because all the things you think make you a bad/good person dont matter so much, which is good for when those things cease to be the same way.

Thank you for this paragraph, it's what i meant when I mentioned not giving a fuck. It's definitely not the same thing as apathy.
 
Thank you for this paragraph, it's what i meant when I mentioned not giving a fuck. It's definitely not the same thing as apathy.

my mistake, you could understand how i would misconstrue your statement for perfunctoriness.

i dig.
 
paxil is good for this. 2-3 weeks and you will be happy. no alcohol no drugs.