So from now on I'm going to be friendly and kind...and stuff

No worries brother, no offense taken.


Aurel, I have the audacity of hope. I will overcome this gangrenous disposition and have a boulevard named after me one day. Acai Alley
 
Day two was even more touching than the first. I volunteered to divulge my plan at the start of the class which concluded with a resounding round of applause. Though my "possibility layout" was far from the most personal, as many of the attendees touched on subjects far more dear to their hearts than I. One of which came from a girl who was raped, diagnosed with brain cancer, and has no family, who has decided as a result of this course to go back to school for a higher nursing degree. Simply inspirational! I've never been surrounded by so many worthwhile individuals from a vast spread of lifestyles in all my days. My heart rings with feelings of promise, possibility, and encouragement for myself and all those who strive for better emotional well being. The class was a multi-cultural smorgasbord and for this I benefited dearly. The second half of the day we partook in exercises that included, non-verbal communication (plenty of hugs were exchanged), meditation nap time, dancing, writing postcards to those who you appreciate, and so forth. It was a truly rewarding experience that I shall not forget. It's amazing how quickly you can bond with complete and total strangers after opening up to them in a judge free environment. It was surreal mates.
 
I hope you're serious.

I am my good man. I only hope that this vision of internal change remains constant over time. It's going to be challenging to not fall back in to my hateful habits of old, but I'm going to give it a GungHo try to see what doors my nasty distasteful disposition has always prevented me from opening. Life's too short to be a hate mongreling misanthrope. Everybody in this life is an individual vessel, one should not cast aspersions on entire races based on the minority of delinquents affiliated to a given pool. I plan on moving forward without malice in my veins, and a clear understanding that their is good in us all. I met so many wonderful people these past two days and I have nothing but the utmost respect and admiration for the instructor as an individual. Something that I surely would not have said 48 hours ago given his sexual orientation. I admittedly went in to this program as an embodied violation against equality. I leave with the hope of being a better person. No I don't expect a complete personality overhaul. I don't expect to become something that was never inside me to begin with. But I do believe that I can channel the part of me which I consider purely righteous and good and drive it to the fore. I need to be a man that doesn't dwell on the minutia of his neighbor and focus on the constructive. It's time to crawl out of the mire of negativity and follow that beacon of possibility down roads untraveled, with people who promote growth. A rose will wilt when fertilized with concrete. That's who I've become my friends. A callous, hardened, embittered, piece of shit, who doesn't care that his fellow man thrives or dies. A man who takes pleasure in the weakness of his neighbor's character. I now fully admit that possessing such a pleasure is the weakest character flaw of them all.




Sure I may sound cheesy, but whatever, sue me for assassination of my own character. :Smokedev: