Mirror of Faults
For sixteen long years
You have played the roll of hate
Every day you stare back at me
Though I should have ended you
You fear it is too late
I look at you for advice
Though you stare and laugh
My eyes have been scarred by your life
Your eyes are saddened by my years of pain
In sadness you frown on the outside
Though the sadness never ends
The times come when people are around
These are the times where I frown on your inside
You take my shape before you
As you stare at your eyes
If glass did not separate us
I would cancel you of your life
My friends are all you live for
Without them, we are nothing
Your sadness in my heart rises
We shall together fall.
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Drink From My Hollow Heart
Resting my head
Bound to see your face
You are the one I look for
Over-under every place
Though you are nonexistent
As I wish you weren't
Please come and heal me
Grip my heart with kindness
You are not alive
You were never even born
So from today to my death
I give up on my search for you
Never will I find a person
To heal me of my wounds
Yet, my heart aches for love
As my eyes wash the pillows
Dead, I should be
But, I have not given in
Even with a heart so empty
I roam the land without a purpose.
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Fortress of Despair
Forever to walk the land alone
Apparent nonsense to you I've thrown
Lulled to sleep by my own sobbing
Death should call, with my brain a-throbbing
My only fear has now come true
All hope of love has drained on through
Lonely days with tears that pour
Self-hatred reigns forevermore
Dreams of walking hand-in-hand
To my regret, have all been canned
Us, as one, would have been great
It is not you, but me I hate
Oh, how I wish to change your mind
But words of change I cannot find
It is your choice, forever decided
Though, it was the hope of us I prided
All I've wanted out of life
Was the love from a future wife
I have tried many times before
Hexed by a curse without a cure
From tears to blood, flowing from my eyes
Instead of clear, red it dries
Cried too much for the glands to take
Dried my soul to watch it chip and break
Release my pain into a bullet
Spread to all who see me through it
Destiny makes my life end
For what will make my brain amend
Help from all is what I'd seek
Push aside what may seem bleak
Fortress of despair is my holy temple
Cast aside is my darkened castle
Walls are bare from hundreds of years
Trapped inside of me with fears
My pleasant nightmare Fortress stands
Built here by my own two hands
My nightmares distanced apart from yours
Mine depressive while yours of gores
I fear not from what you have bled
Desolate spaces within my head
My fear of loneliness is my Fortress
Rags of pain in me redress
Hope has gone from inside these halls
My mental health now slowly falls
As I shock myself with tools of man
Electric death from my cooling fan
No more pain to grip at me
An open casket for you to see.
For sixteen long years
You have played the roll of hate
Every day you stare back at me
Though I should have ended you
You fear it is too late
I look at you for advice
Though you stare and laugh
My eyes have been scarred by your life
Your eyes are saddened by my years of pain
In sadness you frown on the outside
Though the sadness never ends
The times come when people are around
These are the times where I frown on your inside
You take my shape before you
As you stare at your eyes
If glass did not separate us
I would cancel you of your life
My friends are all you live for
Without them, we are nothing
Your sadness in my heart rises
We shall together fall.
-----------------------------------------------
Drink From My Hollow Heart
Resting my head
Bound to see your face
You are the one I look for
Over-under every place
Though you are nonexistent
As I wish you weren't
Please come and heal me
Grip my heart with kindness
You are not alive
You were never even born
So from today to my death
I give up on my search for you
Never will I find a person
To heal me of my wounds
Yet, my heart aches for love
As my eyes wash the pillows
Dead, I should be
But, I have not given in
Even with a heart so empty
I roam the land without a purpose.
-----------------------------------
Fortress of Despair
Forever to walk the land alone
Apparent nonsense to you I've thrown
Lulled to sleep by my own sobbing
Death should call, with my brain a-throbbing
My only fear has now come true
All hope of love has drained on through
Lonely days with tears that pour
Self-hatred reigns forevermore
Dreams of walking hand-in-hand
To my regret, have all been canned
Us, as one, would have been great
It is not you, but me I hate
Oh, how I wish to change your mind
But words of change I cannot find
It is your choice, forever decided
Though, it was the hope of us I prided
All I've wanted out of life
Was the love from a future wife
I have tried many times before
Hexed by a curse without a cure
From tears to blood, flowing from my eyes
Instead of clear, red it dries
Cried too much for the glands to take
Dried my soul to watch it chip and break
Release my pain into a bullet
Spread to all who see me through it
Destiny makes my life end
For what will make my brain amend
Help from all is what I'd seek
Push aside what may seem bleak
Fortress of despair is my holy temple
Cast aside is my darkened castle
Walls are bare from hundreds of years
Trapped inside of me with fears
My pleasant nightmare Fortress stands
Built here by my own two hands
My nightmares distanced apart from yours
Mine depressive while yours of gores
I fear not from what you have bled
Desolate spaces within my head
My fear of loneliness is my Fortress
Rags of pain in me redress
Hope has gone from inside these halls
My mental health now slowly falls
As I shock myself with tools of man
Electric death from my cooling fan
No more pain to grip at me
An open casket for you to see.
