Here they are, in no specific order. I can personally relate with so much Katatonia that it was really hard for me to make a list. It would probably change if I thought about it any longer and I have thought about it for a few already.
1. This punishment- simply because I was always a victim in my mind
2. No Good Can Come Of This- The road to happiness I never knew- Jesus I can relate to that. I used to listen to that song on the way to Detroit to get heroin everyday. I knew I was screwing my life, my ways of playing with death.
3. Omerta- This is my after addiction song, kind of an apology of sorts to the ones that I love who still want nothing to do with me. Their dreams meant nothing to me.
4. Day- I used to listen to that song over and over getting drunk and crying about drunken shit.
5.Distrust-I always felt like I shouldnt exist because I was such a fuckup and I wanted everyone to forgive me and to forget that I was ever a part of their lives.
6. Strained.-I almost forgot this one, how could I? That song was a big part of my wanting to transition from what I was to what I am. The hope in my head and in that song was the same. This time it has to come to an end. I wanted to TRY to live. The end of addiction being the beginning of my life. I still have a hard time listening to that song because I remember too much about how it was.
In many of the moments above all I had was Katatonia, it deadened my mind and somehow kept me alive through some rotten ass days. And if you find this all to be too in depth and cheesy and that I have read way too much into Katatonia just let me say that this is my story, my experience, and I am sorry for you if music is not as profoundly important to you as it is to me.
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