first off i would like to say that David Gold had a profound impact on my life, especially through music from WoY, The Northern Ontario Black Metal Preservation Society, and Thrawsunblat. Not only did the music keep me from going over the edge multiple times, but it changed me and my perspective on life. May his soul forever rest in peace with the earth.
the topic of suicide was touched on, and that sparked my memory of his most recent tweets on twitter (ive followed him for about 2 years now, and it was great) but his last tweets, are for the most part scary, when i first read them, i felt strange - gave me a strange feeling, but now, its even stranger and gives a more scary-erie feeling
here they are, in chronological order (and in direct twitter quote context, and i left one a few ones i felt not important to the significance of what has happened.) please keep in mind this is not me trying to put Dave down or give him bad rep, this is just me giving another possibility of what could be, not matter how badly i dont want it to, also, this is just important regardless
[tweet 1] as of december 27 - 12 days ago
Blacklisted. Damned. In the North again. I can't relate. I don't belong. Not allowed. Don't wanna be. Don't wanna be anymore.
[tweet 2] as of december 27 - 12 days ago
Dreams on Backorder Journal: Surprisingly, pills to help me sleep bring me back to Kuwait nearly every night, but last night was Toronto.
[tweet 3]
In the North, I miss Korea, Kuwait, I regret opportunities forgone, grief thick, sticking, impatient and brooding, I long to go away again.
[tweet 4]
And finally, nearly 10 years in, the art is finally too much, too real, too raw, too close, too loud, cold, clean, but too hard to hear.
[tweet 5] as of december 27 - 9 days ago
I just can't imagine you wanting me to give up. To give up on you.
[tweet 6] as of december 27 - 8 days ago
SADDEST phone interview ever w/big mag in Belgium. Discussed suicides of the journalist's friends and that of the JOY DIVISION vocalist.
[tweet 7]
One of my biggest mistakes was believing the music was real. WOODS OF YPRES doesn't sound that dangerous to listen to it CD...
[tweet 8]
...far removed from the places and events but nearly 10 years in, to live WOODS OF YPRES for real is damn near lethal one day at a time.
[tweet 9]
WI: "Against the Seasons: Cold Winter Songs from the Dead Summer Heat" (2002) = WORLD COMING DOWN
[tweet 9]
WOODS OF YPRES - WII: "Pursuit of the Sun & Allure of the Earth" (2004) = The first comeback album. I felt truly happy writing this one.
[tweet 10]
WOODS OF YPRES - WIII: "Deepest Roots & Darkest Blues" (2007) = WORLD COMING DOWN, again. Best intentions, disastrous life in the end.
[tweet 11]
WOODS OF YPRES - W4: "The Green Album" (2009) = The Second Comeback album, recovering from the loss of the muse of the second album.
[tweet 12]
WOODS OF YPRES - WIV.5 Sessions (2010) 2 songs released on "Home" 7inch wax, three still sitting on a hard drive. Blood, sweat, bittersweet.
[tweet 13]
WOODS OF YPRES - Woods 5: "Grey Skies & Electric Light" (2012) = WORLD COMING DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN!
[tweet 14]
I can only hope to never again create something around which there would be so much destruction, hurt and loss. We MAY survive THIS one. #W5
[tweet 15]
If we make it to Woods 6(66), I think it would have to be a positive record. A life-comeback record. *If* we get through this, now. #Woods5
[tweet 16]
Just realizing now, unfortunately, how far we're usually removed from the content in which we vocalize in metal and how safe it is. #Woods5
[tweet 17]
We sing despair at a 1, don't really mean it. Really mean hope. In the meantime, the person with real despair, at 10, does not sing at all.
[tweet 18]
"Authentic Despair" was tag line used on the very early woods.ca in 2002 under a photo of Aaron Palmer and I, after Woods I: Against the...
[tweet 19]
"Authentic Despair" was then used, more fittingly, but still not totally true, in a lyric on Woods III: "Deepest Roots & Darkest Blues"
[tweet 20] ***
Disheartened, a google search on suicide will result in lots of metal music. I believe many in the genre are so often so far from the truth.
[tweet 21]
#Wood5 is a dangerous record for how real it is and for how somewhere out there, those stories are unraveling in terrible ways in real life.
[tweet 22]
Nearly 10 years in, I'm forced to stop and face the cycle of WoY where odd numbered album begins with so much hope and end in such tragedy.
[tweet 23]
From W5: "Grey Skies & Electric Light", @EaracheRecords has let two songs out: Kiss My Ashes (goodbye) Part II: youtube.com/watch?v=QFfZYy
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[tweet 24]
And also from W5: "Grey Skies & Electric Light", Career Suicide (is not real suicide): youtube.com/watch?v=1LNbrB
[tweet 25]
To write this stuff and to face it is to truly test our fears and beliefs. True: Death is not an exit. But Career Suicide leading to real...
[tweet 26]
It's humbling to write something in strength and conviction, only later to fear what you've created because it hurts too much, is too close.
[tweet 27]
When you see the art you'll understand. It's just not music, n.just artwork, but a piece of work about a broken dream that broke the dream.
[tweet 28]
When meanings become so heartbreakingly ironic, it's hard to face the final product when you live the meanings like a prophecy come true.
[tweet 29]
It's always hard to say goodnight when your relationship has become not with one in particular, but the medium in general. Good is gone.
[tweet 30]
It's dark, it's cold, weighed down with snow. A heart is heavy in the north tonight.
[tweet 31] as of december 27 - 8 days ago, and DG's final tweet
What is this season without a willingness to allow for communication to flow in hopes for understanding? What is there to be afraid of?
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R.I.P David Gold, an amazing musician, an outstanding person, a man who touched the lives of many
my condolences to his friends and family, I also wrote a personal note to his sister and got a very friendly reply, seems the whole Gold family is very nice and friendly.
