<------old and haggard looking.....lol! Well, to confess something, I am back to smoking again (sigh). It seems every time I decide to quit something comes up and takes priority. When I said before that I tend to have psychotic episodes from the withdrawls, I really seriously meant it. Seeing as how some of my time is spent dealing face to face with customers, it was extremely hard not to reach across the counter and slap some of the unruly ones! I also was having a really hard time concentrating on things, which is not good when I have a very well paying, brain straining, important project to do (it could mean new career opportunities if I get it right!). So, when my vacation rolls around I plan to try again, when all I will have to do is sit around and take it easy.
Something I have never understood, considering I have been smoking for 14 years, is I have never liked 2nd hand smoke. I can't stand it. Ever worked somewhere where there is an indoor smoking room? Its one of the nastiest places on earth. And, I absolutly can't fathom how people can smoke in a car with the windows up. Even when I was living in Kansas and it was 2 below outside and I was flying down the freeway going 75 mph, that window was down if I lit one up.
OK, so this is my (counts on fingers) 6th time quitting, but I have gone further this time than all those previous attempts! OK, so its only my 5th day since I quit, but dammit, its a record. Any one else in here ever do it? I am having some weird withdrawl effects, some I expected, some I didn't. I knew I would have some psychotic episodes (half of my tools have been airborn this week), and I knew I would have a general wierd feeling. But what I didn't expect was dizzyness, and a loss of co-ordination. Very strange. Its like a beer buzz without the beer. You would think that would be a good thing, but it gets annoying after a few days.......... 
