It seems like I have to go through a bi-annual pile of pure shit. About twice every year I go through this really tough spot where I feel like life is a hopeless and useless black hole.
What is two times out of the year? Just try not to focus on things so much and enjoy the good times that surround you. Take time to focus on what's good instead of what's bad, and things will go a lot smoother. Now if I could only do the same.
My best friend goes through stuff like this all the time. You just kind of have to try and find the good in your life, though thats hard and there probably isnt any good, just try and find something. Listen to some Opeth or something, write, talk to friends about it. Any time I am having a tough time I find something to be my sanctuary. Eventually passed time will heal old wounds. You can look forward to the future, just look forward to what happens, it may be good, it may be bad, but think about maybe being happy again.
I tried....hope it helped. We all have our rough times.
I really don't mean to give less hope than you're looking for - but I'm 41, and I'm in that hole with you. But there's been a lot of good stuff in between. I guess that rollercoaster of life is true - it's been the longest ride I've ever been on!