Little update for you, Cat, and anyone else who likes Aldious. First, I found a blog post by the former singer, who is indeed the better singer. She posted on a Japanese board, and I had it translated. Her doctors wouldn't allow her to perform live anymore due to her condition.
"Even though on our official homepage, it is simply stated as 'not feeling well', but the truth is it is a severe/serious condition of the brain that can not be completely cured. There are many people out there that has the same disease as me, but I have symptoms that are specific to me. As to the exact name and detail of the disease, that is something that I want to keep within my family and I, thank you for your understanding."
"I started writing entries in my blog regarding life. The reason I started was because I have to deal with the possibility of death directly"
Unfortunately, she never blogged again. I have no idea if she's even alive.
My friend also translated 3 songs. They were tough because songs are poetry and don't lend to direct translation. Still, they are incredible lyrics.
"Wish Song"
I pretended to not see the hand that is reached toward me
I ran away because I was afraid to get involved with the warmth of people
There are grey clouds in the sky, cold snow is falling
I laid face down while loneliness pushed me from behind
while I was down, you came and shone the light on my heart; which was wandering in the darkness, with your smile
Ah I am filled with emotions that I want to get across to you
I hope that it will expand like wings along with this song
My wish song
The saying that the world is filled with rose color is a lie
It is actually surrounded by high walls
However, you are the one that lead me out of the confinement
Ah
I want to cherish the different feelings , which is like a rainbow, with you and sing this song
Ah
Ah LaLaLaLa
It doesn't matter what the world is like
I want to cherish the bond with you and sing together
My wish song
"Yoru Chu"
You approached me silently to present me with everything you have
I will use my eyes as a weapon and seize everything you have hidden from me
In this space where a group of night butterflies gather together and spread their colorful wings (note, the night butterfly, which is pronounced 'yachou', is a slang for a club hostess)
They spread the scales which will make you my slave and only capable of looking at me
I won't suck up to anyone
I also don't take orders from anyone
There is another side to these pair of beautiful eyes, they have seen all the darkness you can imagine
drool falls from my lips, I have lived my whole life without showing anyone the real me.
I am afraid to trust anyone....I am scared to do so
Before I can realize it though, I am affected by your straight forward emotions, which I can't forgive myself for
I only know the world at night
Even the pair of wings which is covered in darkness is dyed white by tears
Now I am a night butterfly that is flying toward the sun with you in a world without lies
"Shion"
The star like heart is melting like the moon disappearing into the dark night
extend out the hand
light and shadow returning to the sky
the track of tear reflects the loneliness that remains in my heart
I will continue to pray even if I would to rot away and keep on getting hurt
You are burdened with having to relive through the forgotten guilt, memory filled with blood.
The least I can do for you is to break you completely myself just like that day
I will put my hand on my chest and continue to pray toward the sky
my eyes reflect the blood and tears
I will continue on even if I stay lonely and keep on getting hurt
You are burdened with an old wound that has opened up again, having completely lost your voice
The least I can do for you is to not hesitate and break you completely myself just like that day
The tears reflect the loneliness that is left in my heart
I will continue to look up even if I rot away and keep on getting hurt
You are burdened with having to relive through the forgotten guilt, memory filled with blood.
The least I can do for you is to not hesitate and show you the end myself just like that day
The judgement of Shion (shion is a type of flower Aster tataricus and its name in Japanese flower language (called "Hanakotoba") is 'I won't forget you')
to the tainted memory and broken you
