Originally posted by Fjelltussa
Btw, one thing... Several of you mentioned scars, carving and cutting... Just wondered what your experiences with these things are. Does it help? Why do you do it? How? ..... 'Cause it has helped me a lot. I does help me... At least for a while, because it makes me think of smth else. -Or nothing special. Then the depression eases - and I start to feel the cuts......
But I don't make these very large cuts. Like, my cousin told me about this girl she knows (because we met the father of her now dead child at Inferno)... She made a upside-down cross over her whole front body. I'd never do smth like that. -Well, never a upside-down cross cross in any size, but never that big, I mean.
It'd just be interesting to know what you others think about this subject.
A little very late reply to this... I'm not quite sure how I feel about
self injury (SI). Never did it myself, but I can understand it as a way
of coping with things. It's not very constructive in the long run
though. Eventually you may severly hurt yourself even if not planning
to, and the scars will always be there. I'm not bothered by scars,
but others do react negatively too it. My bf does SI, and people do
look at him in strange ways whenever he's wearing a t-shirt. But
then again he has taking it to extremes (If you've ever seen the
cover of Abyssic Hate - Suicidal Emotions, that's him). I could post
other pics too, but I'm not sure if I should.
SI is, if not common, so at least something quite a few people do
to deal with e.g depression. I wouldn't do it myself, but I can understand
why others chose this way.
Quite another thing to keep in mind is that it may cause a lot of
stress to those fond of you when you SI. I've been spending more
than enough night wondering whether he is alive and ok or not
to know being in the "other part" can be though. I will always worry
even if he tells me there's no reason to, or he don't want me to.
This turned out rather ramblish, but it's a long story, and I don't want
to bother you all with the whole thing.
The
BUS Forum is a
good place to start if you want more information or generally just
get in touch with others doing the same.
Sometimes you just feel like you could toss your life, cramp it up and throw it in a dustbin, and start it again how if fits best with your wishes. I miss Fjelltussa so much.... hope she's alright now?! *sigh*
