in a few ways satanism makes a 'hell' of a lot more sense than other organised religions.
"Satanists do not believe in the supernatural, in neither God nor the Devil. To the Satanist, he is his own God. Satan is a symbol of Man living as his prideful, carnal nature dictates. The reality behind Satan is simply the dark evolutionary force of entropy that permeates all of nature and provides the drive for survival and propagation inherent in all living things. Satan is not a conscious entity to be worshipped, rather a reservoir of power inside each human to be tapped at will. Thus any concept of sacrifice is rejected as a Christian aberration—in Satanism there’s no deity to which one can sacrifice"
that speaks more to me than christianity, it isnt about believing in a person who may or may not exist, it's about belief in oneself. fundamentally that speaks to me way more than anything else, it could probably get a bit silly but there are parts of satanism which make sense.
oh and don't give up on the guitar, just be patient til next year. the RR24 is main guitar now, its a beaut.