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I'm pretty much done with the whole month of April. My grandfather had two heart attacks this morning. He's been unresponsive since it happened and they took him off of life support at 4. He is almost completely brain dead except for whatever part controls respiration. If you can call what he's doing "breathing". He was seizing pretty badly for a while but they gave him meds to stop it. They said it could be 5 minutes or it could be a couple of days. Either way, we're all sitting here basically waiting til the moment his heart gives up.

The hardest part so far was going to their house and cleaning up the breakfast he never got to eat. Scooping his eggs and bacon into the trash was terrible. I had to get some information off of his computer for my grandmother so I've been over there for most of the day. It's fucking weird. He's not dead yet, but he's gone ...I don't know what to think.
 
*hugs sammeh*

Losing your grandfather is one of the worst feelings in the world, but I promise it will get better. Keep yer chin up :)
 
god, sam, that's horrible *hugs* i hope he can pass on soon and peacefully

Thanks guys. :) I keep feeling like all the shit that's happened will hit me sometime soon, I just know I'm storing it up in a great big stress ball and it's going to explode. My tally for the last 14 days is one dead cousin that was fucking awesome, a dead hamster, a hurt dog, a mother that went blind, and now this. Make it stop. :erk:
 
...and he's gone. It's so weird. He was cooking breakfast and said his arm hurt. He sat in his chair and passed out, and that was it. No matter how many of my relatives drop dead or how many funeral homes I've worked in, it's so fucking surreal.
 
Sam! *hugs and bosoms*
im so sorry...its really rough to lose someone like that...trust me..its been about exactly 4 years since i lost my grandfather...
I hope the shitstorm ends soon!