@all
thanks people, for a moment I felt like returning to the last, still standing bulwark. Thank you for cheering me up. I've been struggling all this time leaving positions one by one. Not sure I will be able to post much since am still the struggle within.
@rahvin
1. Onyx probably studies further. Last time I heard from her was an sms this autumn (or winter?) If you want I will drop her a line so this another Russian poopyhead shares my joy of being still remembered by someone.
2. this question sounds as desperate as tons of my "will I ever... whatever". But this time I'm really going to visit one of DT summer gigs in Europe so I'd be really happy to meet any of you.