I am 20 a virgin and do not really mind nor see a girl as toy so would let her decide when to do things if having a girlfriend. A lot of times think I would rather touch a girl and eat her out over having sex or even receiving, but never have gotten head so don't know. I like this 17 year old girl at my job for example and think she likes me and she has amazing perky tits so would like to know her and get her alone on a couch, but when trying to socialize things like these are not on my mind.
I would imagine someone would be curious of what I look like being a virgin. Digital cam pics kinda suck and I don't really consider myself ugly. If I lose it lose it and hopefully it just happens when not expecting it. I'm not trying to get laid. I guess I have my days where I think I am ugly and than goodlooking so sometimes waste time on self-esteem and doubt and regardless being young still have wasted a lot of time.
a pic from about a month ago.
I also dropped out of 11th grade so sometimes find a girl who for example at my job who is 19 wants to be a nurse intimidating because she's into school and I hated it since kindergarden never paying attention and can't grasp math and things and regardless if there is attraction make no money and am not going anywhere anytime soon. If a girl really wanted me to and pushed me would get my GeD and go to a community college and do something. I don't care or want to just would. I think regardless if she also found me attractive why the hell would she give me the time a day especially when she's moving herself forward. I being single just don't have the drive or force to try something because can't find the good in anything on my own to make me care enough to take a big step. I kinda care now just not much more. If I just keep having no luck with girls and am just going to form a band and try and tour and say fuck this place which is probably what I am going to do anyways. I hated school and now hate the working almost everyday thing. I will do it it's just wish there was better reasons and besides that could only move out if with someone else because my paychecks suck(am going to attempt to get a better wage soon). I guess that's some kind of advancement.