Re: my problem
Sorry I haven't been about to get right back to you all on this after your sound support.
. First of all thank you as always.
@Marduk: I gave her all the time I could, and at one point that was every day every hour none stop between sleeping and being at work. Bad I know as I started to feel really constricted and she didn't know why/took it personally. After we both went back to our places of education and had less free time, it obviously meant we couldnt see each other every day, and that is sort of where her neighbour came into it.
Just feel I need to clarify, she didn't have sex with her neighbour and any kissing that happened was from him to her, she just pulled away (still the fact that his lips touched hers, even if it was for a fragment of a second really pissed me off). The thing she did that hurt me was basically try to continue to have a friendship with this guy despite me being so jeallous because he wanted her so much.
Apparently he put alot of emotional pressure on her, as did I, even after we broke up because we were both fighting to be number one in her life. Where I fucked up was, I actually was number one. The day after I found out about her accepting this guys offer for them to be together, she broke up with him :s. She got really depressed because she couldn't be with either of us without destroying the other... and I didn't even want to be with her... and she didn't want to be with him, she just needed closure or something.
So now I'm in touch with her again and am going to be a friend to her. If I'm being honest with myself, I still confused and don't know if it's just the relief that she dumped this jerk and I don't want her to be depressed, or if I'm genuinely happy that we can remain friends.
Either way, posting here and talking about it, has helped. Every bit of advice you've given me is invaluable. Just for a sloppy moment to conclude this lil saga, it's because I really respect you all.
*Pineapples all round*