Originally posted by metalmancpa
OK - I guess I've trapped myself here.
You're at a disadvantage because of the short period of time you've been here. The longer someone is here, the more you "get to know" someone - always remembering this is just the internet - and I really don't know anybody here.
So maybe you've been defending yourself since the beginning. I don't mean explain yourself as to who you are - but what you are to this little messageboard we all frequent too much. Misanthrope may sound the same as you with his posts - but he has said all along his purpose was to destroy this messageboard. That's what I mean by explaining.
Look at my title - Papa Opeth. I've taken the "role" as Papa, Misanthrope has taken the "role" as anti-forum warrior. He still posts based on his true self - but he has a "life" here. As does someone like Satori - he "explained" himself many moons ago.
Well, maybe I've been here too long - what, 9 months or so? I've seen much more of the patterns of people here than you, no matter how many posts we have. I am not a fighter, but someone who "attempts" to reason. And I am not the best at getting my thought across on a keyboard.
Sorry for any harsh feelings this, or any other post of mine, has caused you.
Listen, the whole point is that I haven't been here long. And perhaps Wolff thought that by calling me a "stupid bitch," that would give me a hint as to how he is. Perhaps misanthrope threw shit at me because he wanted me to know how he is, and see the humor in it. I don't know. All I know is that at the time I was told this, I was too new. Yes, I posted opinions on the site, but do you know why? Because I went through some of the threads and I said to myself, "wow, these guys are intelligent, they can debate, they can agree to disagree, wow, I might like it here!" Maybe I posted my opinions too early? Maybe I opened up too much? I don't know...it's easier to come to a forum and act like yourself off the bat than when meeting people in person, you slowly open up and get to know each other, as opposed to a forum where your personality is like BAM.
My harsh feeling is the double standard. I've been apologizing for 3 days now. And I leave, and what do I find? 15 threads dedicated to me. I'm accused of insulting, and the items that were brought up I admitted to and apologized about, but everyone keeps ignoring the insults that were thrown at me! And I'm sick of it! Especially with Lina, no one sees it but me, and not one person has been able to show me one insult I directed at her. Her insults were ugly, cruel, bogus assumptions, and I hated it. Because she has been here longer, she will be taken seriously, and what she says will affect the entire board. This is why I was so adamant in proving my case with her! But no one listened. All I got was "drop it."
I'm fucking human here! You want to know me? I'll tell you again:
parent and wife - first and foremost
then, not in any particular order:
1. insomniac - I don't fucking sleep, and that's the bottom line
2. slow at work - we have our slow times, and this is one of them - but when we're busy, we'll stay here until 9:00 pm if we have to...
3. opinionated
4. emotional - very
5. takes offense easily - yes, I always have, always will...it's part of my character
6. hates being called a bitch
7. hates being attacked on her parenting skills
8. hates being attacked for being on welfare
9. hates when her son is brought into an argument
10. has to get her point across - perhaps a bad trait, but when I'm misunderstood, I have the need to clarify myself, and I don't give up easily
11. loves all kinds of music - be it nu-metal, death metal, black metal, opera, classical, rap, grind, prog, 80's, etc...
12. is open-minded - very
13. is not a goth - I just had to post that again..hehehehe
14. loves to read - all books, but especially stuff like philosophy, science fiction, erotic art, languages, how-to, etc..
15. values education - I love learning - I'll take a course on ANYTHING...be it cross-stitching, Japanese art, whatever
16. Loves culture
17. Loves people
18. Hates joking around too much - I believe there's a time for everything - I don't mind dead-panning, but if it's constant joking around, especially on a serious subject, it gets on my nerves..
I'm sure I've missed stuff. All I want is to meet a group of people I can relate to, have discussions with, perhaps meet in real life one day, conversate about anything. That's it.