Interesting timing! I had a friend invite me out to watch the Buckeyes v. Wolverines this weekend. It was "show up-no big deal one way or another." I don't have problems going to bars but for this particular occassion(plus I was saving money for my bass) I figured not a good idea. When I got home, he had left me a couple of messages telling me basically what an assohle I was. Confused to say the least. I called and he hung up. The next day a realitive of his called me telling me he never made it home. So to sum it up I used to be like that everyday. Incoherent with myself and others, belligerent when questioned about it and not really caring how others were concerned for me. Am I losing friends? No and Yes. Anytime I want to get fucked up again or just go where they are they'll always be there but as far as them getting off the bar stool and making a CONSISTENT companionship with myself, no way. Physically, I've lost about 90-95 lbs. and I'm doing things like working out, playing my bass and enjoy ice cream. It wasn't hard to go through b/c I had wanted to quit. However, everyone has times of adversity in their life and this was by far the most overwhelming. I believe that I've shown good character in handling it but I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. Later 
