I am still refusing to accept this. This is probably the death (celebrity or otherwise) that is being the hardest to come to terms with. I know this sounds like I am overreacting and I have never even met Alexi (other than going to a couple of CoB shows), and I have had family members pass away, but they were old and dealing with serious illness or so it wasn't unexpected and therefore didn't hit the same way. Heartbreaking.
Like so many others here, Children of Bodom was the band of my teenage years (and I never really grew out of them; I kept coming back and Hexed was such a good, old-school CoB album that I was really looking forward to Bodom After Midnight and whatever was coming next). They were there for me when no one else was: they were my friends through tough times, they kept me company and molded my musical taste and who I am as a person, up to this day. It hurts to know that Alexi won't ever know just how much his music meant to all of us on a personal level, and that I will never tell him that personally.
So young and talented, with so much left to do. RIP Alex.
Something that has been bothering me, though, is how much people have been speculating and gossiping about the cause of death. I know we all want closure, but Alexi was a pretty private person and never really opened up to what kind of illness(es) he had. I doubt he (and his family) would be okay with people discussing something so personal, there is a reason why they didn't want to specify and we should respect that. Just my 2 cents.