shit yeah. my wife put her 2 weeks in back in june, because she felt her job was too stressful and she didn't want anything to happen to our baby. i shit you not, her very last day on the job, she had a miscarriage. she almost bled to death too. i wonder if it would been for the best. she thought she'd be able to find a job by now, but she's still not able to, and i don't make very good money. we live in a meth ghetto, we get about 175 a month in food stamps, but goddamn gas, food, kids clothes, and stupid shit we don't need has got us behind big time.
i had to quit drinking, which is something that i'd really like to do when things are going fucked up, kind of take the edge off late nights after long days. which is gay as fuck, because it seems like i'm teh only one making sacrifices, my wife and kids are constantly buying stupid shit, and fast food and all-around bullshit. i know it's taken a toll on my marriage, but i know i'm not the only. times are tough for alot of people these days. it would be easy to slap the shit of her and beat my kids asses for fucking with my money, but i just keep doing what i gotta do. and it's really fucked up because i'm kind of relieved now that we lost the baby, which makes me feel shitty, but oh well, i just hope that things get better and she can find a decent job.
there are motherfuckers around here though that have 6, 7 kids, are on mad drugs, don't work, worthless fucks who pay like 50 dollars rent and get up to 1,500 a month assistance, but when we applied they gave us such a paltry sum. it sucks to even have to go there though, i'd rather we earn our money honestly, but times are shitty, and sometimes you need help. i have a death and dismemberment plan at my job, but that's a last resort. bank robbery, drug dealing, pimping, all these things cross my mind everyday. fuck, even going to church crosses my mind. i dunno, whatever, at least i still have internet, and that's all that matters.
