I'm pretty sure that almost everyone are influenced by different kind of moods when it comes to listening to music. Also, I'm sure too that I'd have wrote something completely different of what I'm about to write.
I've been going through too much problems and I seriously have been feeling very sad this past 8 months. (I'm not counting my mother, neither my sister, I can't count with my friends, they all have their own problems... and the only person I truly love with all my heart has his own too. So, being 'alone' it isn't the best way to face it (...)
These things have costed me serious health problems and if that's not enough (inevitably you have) -not so serious- but mental problems at last.
So being in my position, I have to say that - right now- no, I don't find depressive music, relaxing in any level. Yesterday night, I was in my bed listening music with my discman and I swore to myself not to listen Anathema's Are you There? anymore - for example- at least not until I try to get better.
Some records I can't listen to are:
Opeth: Face of Melinda - When - Damnation.
Apocalyptica: Reflections - Apocalyptica.
My Dying Bride: The Angel and the Dark River - Songs of Darkness, Words of Light - Like Gods of the Sun.
The Cure: Disintegration.
Rotting Christ: Sleep of the Angels.
Antimatter: Lights Out.
A Perfect Circle: Mer de Noms.
Celestial Season: Solar Lovers.
Ulver: Kveldssanger.
Type O Negative: None of them.
Anathema: A Natural Disaster.
Yes.
Hah... sad, guess what? I'm already a depressed person so I don't need to listen depressing music to feel myself like shit - therefore- it doesn't make me feel relaxed AT ALL. So my conclusion now would be 'The more violent it gets, the fucking better' Why? I think it's pretty simple, because I don't have the time to force myself to think (complain/whine/bitch/cry/moan ...god how many synonymous) things that hurts me.
Now that I've spit it out everything, strangely I feel a litle better. How weird.
Ok, that's it. *sigh*
(Please, keep in mind I only read the thread title, not the content, because I didn't have time. In fact, I wrote this at my house, so it's pretty probable that this has nothing to do with anything posted here. My apologies.)