I'm only 17 and so I dunno how useful an answer I can give, but yeah, it has gotten easier for me. I went through a lot of emotional shit when I was 14/15, teen angst and the like probably (trivial maybe, but try telling that to someone in it). There were a few times I was so bored and fed up with the futility of it all that I almost gave in, but looking back I'm glad I held on. Or am I? I really don't know. Maybe I'll write another reply when I'm not completely out of it. Speaking of suicide though, take on this pic for size: http://damaged.anime.net/archive/suicide.jpg