I've always wanted to play or produce music for a living, but now that I am getting closer to making that happen, I keep feeling like I want out; like I am pathetic for playing music. It used to be so cool to me, and I still really enjoy music when I'm behind a guitar and a mic or a drumkit, but when I'm away from those things I feel like it's just a big waste of time.
Long story short, I was a really smart student, had a lot of great opportunites, but some people close to me blocked a couple of those opportunities pushing me into a downward spiral. I ended up taking none of those opportunities because as smart as I was, I really was really stupid.
Music is what I turn to when I feel like shit, and I get so caught up in it that I forget about "the real world" and live in my own. I get the urge to quit and try to resurrect my previous life of academics. I wouldn't have a cave of music to crawl into when I'm down.
I have quit pretty much everything else in my life, why not music? I really don't know what the hell I want anymore. All I know is, I feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world unless I have a guitar in my hands. And even then, all I am doing is whining about my life. How pathetic...
Do you ever get the urge to just jump ship and take a completely different path in life?
Long story short, I was a really smart student, had a lot of great opportunites, but some people close to me blocked a couple of those opportunities pushing me into a downward spiral. I ended up taking none of those opportunities because as smart as I was, I really was really stupid.
Music is what I turn to when I feel like shit, and I get so caught up in it that I forget about "the real world" and live in my own. I get the urge to quit and try to resurrect my previous life of academics. I wouldn't have a cave of music to crawl into when I'm down.
I have quit pretty much everything else in my life, why not music? I really don't know what the hell I want anymore. All I know is, I feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world unless I have a guitar in my hands. And even then, all I am doing is whining about my life. How pathetic...
Do you ever get the urge to just jump ship and take a completely different path in life?