This is the thread where you post all your problems going on currently. It's not a "feel sorry for me" thread, just a way to vent.
I found out a short time ago that my grandmother has lung cancer and is now going through chemotherapy. The outlook is positive; however, she's quite old and no one knows for sure what will happen. I haven't been home in three years and I told my parents that we'd come home for Christmas...then unexpected bills and shit happened and now we can't afford the $2,400.00 price tag on tix to the US. Well, we could afford it, but everything else would go to shit and we'd have to ask for money to live on, which I just won't do. So, here I am, for the first time in 29 years, having to ask my Dad for money. Even though he would be extremely hurt if he knew that I needed money and didn't ask, I've been self-sufficient since I left home at 18 and never asked my family for anything. It's a pride thing and I promised myself that I'd give my family money when I grew up and lived on my own, not ask money from them. I think they're a little hurt by the fact that I don't let them do anything for me...
So, here I am, a 29 year old grown man, having to ask my pops for money. To some people that may seem stupid to be bothered by that, but being self-sufficient all my life makes it really hard for me to do it. They struggled most of their lives to be where they are and be comfortable, and I guess that's what I remember the most...their financial problems made me feel guilty about needing something from them, so I rarely asked for anything growing up aside from the occasional gas money. Maybe I'm retarded for feeling this way, but I can't help it. I feel like I'm 15 all over again.
I found out a short time ago that my grandmother has lung cancer and is now going through chemotherapy. The outlook is positive; however, she's quite old and no one knows for sure what will happen. I haven't been home in three years and I told my parents that we'd come home for Christmas...then unexpected bills and shit happened and now we can't afford the $2,400.00 price tag on tix to the US. Well, we could afford it, but everything else would go to shit and we'd have to ask for money to live on, which I just won't do. So, here I am, for the first time in 29 years, having to ask my Dad for money. Even though he would be extremely hurt if he knew that I needed money and didn't ask, I've been self-sufficient since I left home at 18 and never asked my family for anything. It's a pride thing and I promised myself that I'd give my family money when I grew up and lived on my own, not ask money from them. I think they're a little hurt by the fact that I don't let them do anything for me...
So, here I am, a 29 year old grown man, having to ask my pops for money. To some people that may seem stupid to be bothered by that, but being self-sufficient all my life makes it really hard for me to do it. They struggled most of their lives to be where they are and be comfortable, and I guess that's what I remember the most...their financial problems made me feel guilty about needing something from them, so I rarely asked for anything growing up aside from the occasional gas money. Maybe I'm retarded for feeling this way, but I can't help it. I feel like I'm 15 all over again.
