Originally posted by Oyo
I'm kind of weird in that I like feeling feelings be they good or bad.
Hey ! A soul mate ! Yeah, I've become like this recently too, it's fun to step outside the feeling and just see it as a colored sphere from the side. That may be an exaggeration - you can never totally leave your state of mind, but in a way it's kind of cool to taste those various feelings.
Happiness is usually a shortlived feeling for me that comes from a realization that I don't have any obligations for a full week.
And again, I agree. And that is called laziness too, but fuck it all !
I disagree about the original statement about negative music. And I'm talking from my own experience - I feel inspired to improvise music or to write lyrics when I have a strong mood. And this mood doesn't have to be negative or depressed. I have found out some months ago that I can be inspired by almost everything around me. I started seeing everything differently, seeing more beauty and depth in the surroundings and hearing more music in everything. Any little detail, even a random word said or a random written message on the wall or on the TV can bring its own special aura, and when I succeed to keep it with me until I arrive home and reach the piano or the guitar, the best music always comes out then.
Negative music is as inspiring as positive music is ! I get immense feelings of joy and upliftment (a word ?) from "Warm Sporran" by Jethro Tull, and I can feel true sorrow and desolation from "The Light at the End of the World" (the song) by My Dying Bride... But afterwards, any good music leaves me filled and inspired.
Most people who write music or something else only to channel their depression sooner or later leave it, when their life becomes more filled. It's when you can grab something outside yourself, merge it with a part of yourself, and create something from it, no matter what color your mood is, if the mood is strong, then you're on the right way. I've had only one more-or-less serious depression period during the last 3 or 4 years - I'm mostly a happy fellow ! I'd never halt and think about shit like suicide now. There must be something profoundly wrong about me, no ?
D Mullholand