i have a dog, jenny, a 16 year old tibet terrier.
she's been acting strange for a while now....she's getting old fast, and the last weeks were quite terrible in that respect. she's disoriented, doesn't react when i come home, doesn't really like her food anymore (she used to be begging all the time), can't quite hold "it" anymore, and most of the time she's just lying on the floor or restlessly wandering around.
today i just came home from band rehearsal, and i was SHOCKED when i came home...there was poo mixed with blood all over the place. actually more blood than anything....right now she's again walking around restlessly, her back bent upwards, shaking legs, and is largely disoriented.
guess the time has come now....
i'm sad beyond belief. i grew up with her, she's been with us since i was 7 years old, and she's been an incredibly good dog. very bright, very lively, very obedient and just generally easy and caring. she's been with me for the larger part of my life, and it's incredibly hard for me right now.....
what's even more difficult is that i live with my parents, who are currently on vacation abroad. they're coming home soon and cutting it short, but it's naturally going to take them a while to come home, and i'm not sure if she's going to make it this long, or if i can justify her suffering for a few more days just because i'm suffering hard from the thought of having to do this all by myself.
i guess i'll have to do what needs to be done, but it's really hard to do this without anybody coming along and supporting me.
right now i'm tempted to grab a bottle of vodka and just numb my mind down so i don't have to think about it all....
she's been acting strange for a while now....she's getting old fast, and the last weeks were quite terrible in that respect. she's disoriented, doesn't react when i come home, doesn't really like her food anymore (she used to be begging all the time), can't quite hold "it" anymore, and most of the time she's just lying on the floor or restlessly wandering around.
today i just came home from band rehearsal, and i was SHOCKED when i came home...there was poo mixed with blood all over the place. actually more blood than anything....right now she's again walking around restlessly, her back bent upwards, shaking legs, and is largely disoriented.
guess the time has come now....
i'm sad beyond belief. i grew up with her, she's been with us since i was 7 years old, and she's been an incredibly good dog. very bright, very lively, very obedient and just generally easy and caring. she's been with me for the larger part of my life, and it's incredibly hard for me right now.....
what's even more difficult is that i live with my parents, who are currently on vacation abroad. they're coming home soon and cutting it short, but it's naturally going to take them a while to come home, and i'm not sure if she's going to make it this long, or if i can justify her suffering for a few more days just because i'm suffering hard from the thought of having to do this all by myself.
i guess i'll have to do what needs to be done, but it's really hard to do this without anybody coming along and supporting me.
right now i'm tempted to grab a bottle of vodka and just numb my mind down so i don't have to think about it all....